Can We Get On With It?

2009-07-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

2008-06-15T22:35:00.003+08:00

U cant blame him for trying

2008-03-11T15:35:00.003+08:00

U cant blame him for trying (and succeeding). Any1 with his freedom curtailed will think of regaining it by any means necessary. its just tt this bugger's escape is causing so much trouble to singaporeans. esp ppl living or working near the tuas or woodlands checkpoints. i can attest to that: the jam from those trailer trucks is so long u have to see to believe it! the traffic congestion affects everybody. horrendous. they scared he hide inside some truck la. pity those poor msian drivers. gotta be stuck in the jam for so long cause of this 1 man. wouldnt wanna be them. oh it somewhat eased up last friday, possibly cause msia election so they let them thru more quickly in anticipation of the increased traffic due to hols starting and ppl going back to vote.

things to think about:
1. qn: dun they have scanners for the trucks to drive through like what they do for containers at PSA?
ans: shipping containers can cause ports use NEUTRON SCANNERS and the containers are lifted mechanically and scanned (i think so). no humans within range of scanner. impossible to do it for the trucks isnt it? u gotta have a driver driving thru the scanner and getting exposed to so much gamma rays. big no no... might be possible to construct a mechanical tow to pull trucks in for scanning but it'd still b too slow and expensive.

2. y the Minister decide to release news of the escape 4 hrs after they knew he was gone? he said he unarmed and didnt pose a threat at that time. Please lor. the surrounding got so many schools and residential area means got many more pairs of eyes than ur all security forces rite? if within 20 mins u inform ppl then will have more pair of eyes help u find rite? how far can a limping man hobble? I know cause i was a cripple once, some might still say i walk with a limp. are all the top brass so lacking in critical thinking? bo bian la. scholars cant think out of the box...

the real truth: Minister wanted to keep it under wraps so that they could apprehend him and put him back and they wun have to release the news and ppl wun know that a big security lapse occurred. u just wanted to prevent ur departments from losing face in case u managed to get him back. poor gamble as it turned out. we know it but as usual, its not something any1 with a brain can put out on the mass media. Its the Gahmen newspapers and tv station what. Everything is on a need-to-know basis.

3. y do they bother looking into forests and wooded areas? so many garang, super-elite military and police units search the entire SG's forested areas still cannot find. MEANS his not there isnt it? change ur tactics man. word on the ground is he is hiding in some HDB flat lor. The Gahmen doesnt have the resources to check every hdb flat. we know it but You cant tell us. u dun want mass panic.

4. at least MM Lee (Lianhe Zaobao, 8 March 2008) was kind enough to remind us that the dude escaped from the toilet. amazing how that fact was erased from all public references after the 1st day. escaping is bad enough, jumping out via a toilet window somehow makes it more embarrassing... he admitted it was a "big security lapse". inference: there will be hell to pay for the guards responsible for letting him go to the toilet and allowing him to climb out from the window... dereliction of duty is something v serious anywhere. even MM said "i'd have to give him full marks for being able to gain the trust of men responsible for keeping guard on him" (my translation from the article). i also applaud him for pulling this off sia.

there must have been a great deal of planning involved. its too much of a coincidence that his family was visting when he went to the toilet (and never looked back). He must have planned a getaway car or made contact with a sleeper cell soon after he limped out. if not how far could he have limped? He needs food and drink and shelter too u know? smart guy man. i respect his brains and opportunism. my speculation is that as a "caged" man, u'd look forward to any possible visit from your family. because he took advantage of the fact that his "detainors" (sounds like a wrong word to use but i cant use the word jailors cause he was technically not in jail and NEVER charged with any actual crime) would construe that having your family visit you would be the most unlikely time for an escape cause its natural to yearn to see your famiy while u are in captivity. marvellous piece of deduction on his part. he gambled and stuck the mother lode.

5. Interpol raised alert for ORANGE to RED. means their assessment is that hes most probably not in singapore liao. The Gahmen cant agree or deny interpol's assessment. if agree means what? with all the effort put into getting him, with all the tightened border security then he still can get out of SG, tts a double whammy (after allowing him to escape) to the relevant depts.

If deny then how? means Gahmen is convinced he still within our borders rite? With the mobilisation of so many men and resources still cannot find one man in such a small and easily fortified island (simple and quick to defend and secure) means there must be some serious incompetence on the part of the security forces rite? either way, its a lose-lose situation for the Gahmen. admit cannot, deny oso cannot. we know it and we sympathise with you on this account.

6. on a sidenote, that Rohan guy seems to be a SG media darling, anything to do with Al-Qaeda, JI, terrorism in general or terrorist oso ask him for quote. like wtf. if he knew terrorists so well,

A. he wouldnt be an academic; he'd be putting his knowledge into reversing terrorism or capturing terrorists out there who are plotting to harm all of us.

B. HE MUST BE A TERRORIST HIMSELF! If not how can he claim to know they so well? He is a researcher lei. He got ever have real face-face contact with a terrorist b4 ah??? Interviewed one personally??? tt prick speaks as if he understands every single terrorist and terror organisation on the planet liddat. see his quotes oso dulan. pui.

Just hope Mas Selamat turns himself in (impossibilty since he worked so hard to get himself free) or they find him sooner rather than later. none of us would like to see those poor lorry drivers getting stuck for like 5 hrs rite? I'M GETTING STUCK IN THE JAM EVERYDAY AFTER WORK!I GET REAL ANGRY!!! surprising how many words i can TYPE OUT in if u cause my journey home to be lengthened rite???

I wouldnt want to die as a victim of a bomb attack too... Die nvm u know, the coroner gotta assemble your body parts and sew them back together lei. not a nice thot to stomach. Bombs are his specialty remember? *boom*

*update: tuas checkpoint seems to have eased up somewhat. now its woodlands checkpoint jialat jialat. was on a cab last night along woodlands road. the lorry lane jam was until stagmont ring there!! omg. its so long i could see it frm my bedroom (even though its quite some distance away). BETTER YET, THOSE MEN WERE SO BORED OR ANGRY THAT THEY WERE BLARING THEIR HORNS THROUGH THE NITE! MOFOs. Cant blam them. They just had to let it out. Tdy morn when i woke up at 6+, there was still a queue of vehicles!!!

when the radio says heavy traffic flow at tuas and woodlands checkpoints, they are lying. Nothing is flowing at all.*

2008-01-07T16:09:00.000+08:00

byebye...

2007-08-19T16:14:00.000+08:00

Yes i'm leaving my hse to go to the airport in an hours time. going to Denmark, Technical University of Denmark, DTU. Going away for one sem. will be back on 2 Jan... ok i shall try being short and sweet for once.

i'm more or less packed. cant tell you how glad i am to leave NTU this fucked-up place. ok maybe its nt tt fucked up. but BIE as a course is freaking useless. i'll definitely talk more about it when i'm there with time to burn...

I cant always be blasting NTU rite? gotta say something good about it. as i've said time and again, the only thing i like there is the greenery and some of the people there. heres an example:

I cant fathom y some people can fail to take note of such beautiful nature around them. the above pic was taken just outside LT2 lor... The LT which you hurry by many times every week . LT2 outside actually can make nice nice one. but those buggers dunno how to or cant be bothered. Just need some landscaping man... I've got no time. if not i'd show some other pics. i'm like rushing now lor.

got my Nikon D80 like almost 2 mths ago. then when i took the cam to sch (6 AUG first day of sch somemore), i dropped my cam and it landed on the lens' edge!!!!!!!! *horror* heng i had a cheapo UV lens filter on and it shattered instead of anything in the lens. i ought to have it checked but well, no time la. i took the above pic and others right after i cleaned up the mess. well it could still take decent pics during my fren's wedding. so i guess its still holding up la...

anyway if i take ugly pics now its more of the photographer's fault la. notwithstanding the budget kit lens (which is v entry level so cant expect much), i've got a decent cam for the 1st time in my life la! will try to take more nice pics when i'm travelling... haha...

wun be having my own com or be online for a long long while. i'm bringing my motherboard and harddisc n dvd drive there la. so i gotta go get a power supply and monitor once i'm over in denmark. the 25% VAT just makes things there real expensive. Cause i HATE laptops. laptops suck. i just didnt want to spend 1.5k on something i'd only really use for 4 mths mah... setting up an open-air system. the true meaning of a desktop PC!!! I'm gonna do it! HAHAHA...

(i'm just trying to comfort myself that this is not such a dumb idea after all)

cant bear to leave certain people... but well, its too late back out now. haha...

au revoir.

Something to say?

2007-05-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

As i'm sure i've said many times already, the only things i like are the greenery and the wildlife in NTU. People and coursemates dun figure in that list (but my ex-roomies do!!). I lived in Hall 2 Blk 7 for the exams. centre room. From my door, I had an unobstructed view of the outside. Esp all those rare birds you dun get in any other populated area in singapore. seen woodpeckers and many other v nice birds. i didnt have the equipment to get their pic... I guess its cause NTU is v near sungei buloh nature park or its lush greenery attracts them. Saw squirrels wrestling each other once too! On tt big tree outside my room! Had many pics of insects... Dunno y, but they like me la. I'm insect and animal friendly. = )
Let the pics do the talking la... BUT FIRST...

Hey i didnt write this lor. There was one mofo who took the straits times in the lounge on the 2nd floor and didnt return them. Wat a dick. the newspapers are meant 4 every1 in the block one lei. i think after this msg was posted, he (most prob is a he since blk7 is a guy's blk) hum jee liao la. he guai guai read liao then put back. hahaha.

I'm v sure no1 has seen such an insect b4 la. if u have, pls tell me its name. it was really beautiful! just resting on the wall. haha. the pic is v grainy cause i had to edit it abit la. and i using camera phone la. i dun blame it being lousy cause it was really v v near liao...

Mr FROG! (ok i dunno if its male. haha.) It was suntanning la. i saw it in the morning in that position then when i walked past it, it was still in tt exact same position la. amazing. i've got an eye for wildlife la. somehow i can just pick them out frm the surroundings even when i'm just walking and not paying attention to what my eyes are looking at.

fyi, its relaxing on the ugly white pipes which make up the "fountain" outside LT2 la. I think tt "fountain" must be for feng shui or something la. if not so many years liao so ugly y still no one wanna take tt space away to grow more trees or something? white pipes rising out of the water. aesthetically annoying. yee. the "fountain" is surround by a pond which is in some weirdo retarded quadrilateral shape la. no symmetry. no beauty in it at all man. yucks. dunno ppl of a certain demographic always like to take photos there lor.

Well i was knee-deep in the "fountain" when i took this. waited for the jetstreams to stop. the lengths (depths rather) i'd go to to take a photo. hahaha...

Posting this ugly pic to show how poor the retarded k800i focus is. the frog is obviously dead-centre, but the optics simply refused to focus on it. Focused on the jet-stream in the background instead. wtf lor. it was in daylight somemore lor. well-lit. the jet was in full blast then. made me wet for nothing.... POS.

oh yeah. then i tried to squeeze the frog to see if it was alive. v fun la. it just exploded into life. dived into the water immediately. so fast. frog muscle axons are zai la! haha... didnt see it after tt day liao. i didnt kill it hor? heee...

another unknown insect. looks quite fierce la. too bad camera phone cant take v close pics. camera phone wat do u expect? haha.

limitation of camera phone again. no choice. i think its safe to say this is some kind of bettle lor. tts all my limited knowledge of insects can tell me.

"yes?"

"you wake me up just to take picture ah? lemme get back to slp la..."

shes (this one i'm sure) a v beautiful cat la. the coat is and stripes are v uniform n shes v docile. wun scratch you one. me n my roomie treat her v well la. i even let her slp tt brown bag u see in the pic la. i got tired of moving her out everytime she comes inside la. just let her stay cause shes so harmless n nice to play with. hee. so she found herself this nice resting spot on my bag lor. shes nice to carry oso. sometimes i let her sit on my chair oso. i'd sit further out and she'd just lie on the back board lor. hee...

shes the most ho mia cat in hall 2 lor. got my roomie n me to feed her. nothing to do tt time she just relaxing lie down on the sofa in the 2nd floor lounge. got fan on the wall blow her somemore. haha.

well my last night in hall i went to feed her la. nanyang mart nvr sell cat food dunno since when la. so i went outside buy premium cat food to feed her la. damn ex sia. one teeny weeny can $2 liao. wtf. n i bought 2 lor. but nvm la. my way of saying sory to her. tt time i accidentally (i swear) stepped on her tail. she always like to walk in between ppl's legs one mah. so there was once i was wearing my slippers then she dunno how walk ard me. i was stepping back then i stepped on her tail. she yelped a v loud meow la. its really saying "Aw!!", just as a human would. felt guilty la. tts y give her good food lor. dunno how she is now. cause blk7 under renovation now. maybe no1 feed her. : ( hope shes not having a tough time with other cats, since cats are also fairly territorial and her regular blk 7 hideout is under reno. well but she can survive one la. tip the garbage bins to find food. shes a cat after all...

PS2! the slim one on top is mine. check out the size difference. just bought it la. its dirt cheap now and still have so many fun games exclusive to it. PS3 now still so ex and no games yet la. having a lotta fun with it! but slim also means it has a high thermal density. if u got one shld keep it well ventilated or get a usb mini cooler for it. it was included in my package la.

i'm saying this for myself: if you need games or an inanimate object to give ur life some purpose, something to look forward to, or something to numb your pain with, you are the ultimate loser la. well i am la. i admit. though i nowadays work come back v tired la. dun game non-stop oso....

just a puzzle i made. nice?

CNY = Holidays + Mood

2007-02-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

An early CNY for me...

My single biggest payout for 1 matchday. The Real Madrid-Levante was the biggest win for 1 game lor. i couldnt believe my eyes when i saw the result in the morning. checked with a few diff sources to verify. = )

Well i think days like Valentine's and Christmas are too commercialised la. U mean on a specific day then u give a gift, be nice to some1 or some ppl meh? I think if you wanna show your care and concern, its more impt to do it everyday. If the other party can feel it then good la. if not then u're screwed. haha. which i think i am. but nvm relaxing. i dun expect anything in return for being nice and helping out my frens.

budden past few days damn sad la. dunno how to describe oso. lim so much then next morn got 0830 lesson. siao one. hai... do you care? hai... hai... been singing all the sad li sheng jie songs every nite. macam concert liddat... hai... the pain just doesnt stop... its wasnt just the holiday mood oso. after cny then 3 days of lessons then 1 wk break liao. Mood... or rather no mood for anything. sian....

Then got so much cb work to do. madness la. tests to study for the term break. u knoe tts y its called a term break lor. its meant to be a break frm going to sch for lessons only. it aint a holiday. nbpcb.................. on top of that then i still have my Jap test to study n revise for. just cant remb all the characters la. argh. no aptitude for it la. but bo bian. now cannot drop the subj liao. then i think i not gonna s/u it cause i need to s/u my URECA! tt one is a real nightmare.... argh...

oh well at least now can stay at hm, slack abit, play some games and do work. i'm not one to go out. i really hate crowds and queues and going out in a big grp. just dun like to see so many ppl la. to me, being able to stay at hm chill, dream, play game n sleep when i want to, is enjoyment enuff. no need to go out spend $ or watever. loner + boring guy = guai kia la. HAhaha...

Yes feb liao means all the TV shows which i dl all resume their runs liao. Prison Break rox to the core though its getting less realistic. its as if the break out wasnt mad enuff. the cons all either dying or surrendering liao. but still interesting. the Scofield character is such a wuss la. doesnt take the necc and decisive action one. just a smart dude with the plan nia. its always like T-Bag which does all the decisive moves that got them tt far.

then LOST. haha. LOST is the number 1 lamer show on planet EARTH la. the only reason ppl like me are still watching is just to see how much lamer the show can get la. this show can go on till season 10 maybe still not over lor. flashbacks all the way and season 3 liao still dun have clear direction or plot. like yo.

like my fren said, "u watch LOST wat. tts y u r lost.".... haha...

The dec hols i was bz doing up the com la. now its quite stable liao. heng. but tts after spending alot alot alot of $$ which made me real broke. it was all a simple 3d card fault, and it made me splurge on things i didnt need at all. its not even an upgrade lor... dulan...

but heres the pics...

in the light and in the dark.
pump + reservoir
radiator assembly
side panel fans
top blow-hole
asus. they make good mobos.
my gaming peripherals. =)

anyway u can see tt the pics taken with the k800i isnt top-notch. 3 Mega pixels but no good. I've always taken pains to tell ppl quality of a pic taken with a camera phone does nt depend so much on the MPs. its got more to do with the electronics and the algorithms the phone utilises. If i were to compare the camera performance of my previous k750i and the current k800i, k750i beats k800i hands down. the most obvious defect lies with the focus. the focusing of k800i is very poor regardless of the light condition, though its not obvious in good lighting. then the focusing of k800i is so damn bloody slow, even after u selected the appropriate mode (e.g. macro, infinity) for the objects distance. like yo. its supposed to be cybershot lei. if u r looking for excellent camera performance frm a phone, u shld pick k750i over k800i. yup...

back to games and work... hahaha... till then...

thanks

2006-12-23T00:51:00.000+08:00

Big Thank You to West Ham! Real big bdae present. Its not that i have anything against Man U, but sometimes Singapore Pools is just waiting for u to eat them. Hhaha...
Another time when dumbass Singapore Pools was waiting for you to eat 'em. Odds of $15 lei.

Budden again, i only showcase those big wins. Those which i lose till jialat jialat i keep quiet. ; ( Nowadays i buy once in like 2 mths lor... Gambling is really not something you can turn a profit from, unless you are the bookmaker or the banker or you open a casino.

Yup wanna thank my frens who celebrated my bdae or sent me greetings. Go ktv. Got cake. Got present somemore. Then my other frens who bought me a pair of jeans with a v raunchy design. I might not say it out but i really appreciate it la. Somemore i dun think i did anything for any of the frens mentioned above lor. Their bdae i oso nvr care.Then they so nice to me. felt guilty la.

anyway its always those ppl whom you care abt and do something for their bdaes who dun ~~care you back one~~ reciprocate (trying to use good ingerish la. ; ) )... at least its true for me... HAhaha

well a bdae is just a day to me la. like wat i told my fren unless you have a special some1 to celebrate with, its really no big deal to me la. even if none of my frens remembered, like in 2004, i oso liddat live my life. no biggie man...

but anyway the definition of a bdae is v strange la. its a birthDAY not birthDATE. for eg u were born on 1 Jan 1984, SunDAY. You'll have to wait till 1 Jan 1989 for your next birthDAY to be on a SunDAY again lei. then 1 Jan 1995, 1 Jan 2006... 2012... 2017... 2023... 2034... 2040... 2045... 2051... 2062... 2068. 6,5,6,11... so in 84 yrs, you'd only have 11 birthDAYs lei... betcha never thot abt tt did ya? well dun look too much into this la. i'm just trying to be lame and forcing my point... ;p

all this is cause of the pecularity of the Gregorian calendar. wouldnt it have been better to define a year as just day #xxx instead of dividing a year into months, weeks and 7 days in a week? 365 or 366 for a leap year, simply isnt a multiple of 12, 52 or 7 lor. like yo. budden again if i had my way, we wouldnt have weekends and life wun be so interesting liao. :x

i very much prefer the Chinese Lunar calendar. simple. beautiful long range order. 12mths. alternate month 29 or 30 days. every few years (forgot how many) you add one more month of that month in that year. means u have a repeat of that month la. but you'd still follow the alternate structure... i was born in the run4 shi1 yue1 (repeat of the 10th month) in1984. i'd have to wait 60 lunar years (5 x 6 + 5 x 6= 60 "turns") to have another run4 shi1 yue1 birthday! wow...

currently working on my watercooling shit. the parts just arrived a few days ago. tough sia. not smooth. many holes to drill. placement sucks. lotsa trouble la. dunno y i always like to pay so much $ to buy trouble for myself to do. siao one.

budden again, i think i'm perverse enuff to enjoy solving these practical problems. its challenging for an amateur like myself... esp when u have to drill a 0.75" (~19.05mm) hole when normal drills u buy from the hardware store can only accept max 13mm drill bits i.e. max 13mm hole!!! somemore is drilling metal, not wood so cant use those expander bits... well i've thot of a solution on paper, but whether it works in reality is a whole different matter. i certainly hope it does. so i guess i'll b without my com for 1 or 2 days. hope i succeed oso. haha...

sometimes it feels good when u r man enough to admit you were wrong... hahaha...

so?

2006-12-08T01:10:00.000+08:00

yes exams r over. so wat? when u knoe u wun do well, you just feel sian.

past few days peaceful la. no calls/sms-es/msn messages asking me exam stuff. DO I LOOK LIKE I HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS? i'm just your regular guy. i also need to study one lei. its ok if u ask abit or ask nicely. i'm not obliged to help any1 unless i'm close to you. It might not be mutual... If i'm close to you, i really dun mind spending my time for you. I'd be happy to have been able to help you out...

when i can give u an instant ans means i've studied it and i know what i'm talking abt. Then i'm alright with u asking cause it'll be like testing myself to see if i've understood the material thoroughly. But answering queries do take up my time lei. u think u ask 1 qn only but i have to answer like how many from diff ppl sia??

If i cant give an instant answer means i havent studied it lor. its disruptive to my schedule one lei. cause i'll have to read up and give a reply ASAP. then somemore i cant give some dumb ans or i cant say i dont know. its as if i must know everything lor. if not i'm worthless to you. i dunno why its liddat, but i seem to have an overwhelming concern over the needs of others lei. so much that it can override my own needs.

cant remb who told me but i remb some1 saying, "ppl 'see you up' then ask u for help wat. its your honour be of help to others". if i were crap, would any1 even bother asking? makes a bit sense but it really creates undue stress la. What if i dun do well for exams? Then next time ppl really "see me no up". n i'll be useless to a couple of them... I'm half hoping that it'll happen la. then i can have a peaceful exam study period for once...

budden again, i think i'd rather do well and keep on helping others la. thats if i can still have decent grades. and i'm being appreciated. sometimes i dunno y i do so much stuff for people (its >1) that show zero gratitude. guess i'm just a dumb fuck.

i make it a point 2b self-reliant. what i need, i do it myself. therefore maybe i should go back to the good old loner days la. solitude suits me. idea huh?

anyway prison break roxxx! its so song to watch everything at one go! whack to the core. storyline is wonderful. fox has a sure winner lor. abc's LOST is a loser by comparison. the real storyline of LOST only proceeds millimetre by millimetre every episode cause its filled with flashbacks. after 2 seasons of flashbacks, viewers already have a good picture of the character development of the main characters. for the most part, how the characters got onto that flight is already explained so they should cut the crap lor... move on. there is only so much suspense can carry you. ppl getting sick of it... oh yea n theres a new series HEROES now. whacks too. these americans really knoe a thing or two abt making addictive tv serials...

i really should start packing my room which looks more like a storeroom but i've been slacking for a couple of days just playing games. Pro Evolution Soccer 6, Need for Speed: Carbon, F.E.A.R expansion, Dawn of War: Dark Crusade and now Medieval 2: Total War. Man n i still have so many games to go. really no time to play sia.

F.E.A.R. is really the most freaking scary game i've ever played. More freaky than DOOM3 lor. DOOM you knoe its on MARS so all the paranormal stuff is expected, but F.E.A.R. is like still in the real world n "she" always pops out when u least expect it. Even after being seasoned to the frights from F.E.A.R., the exp manages to go one up. Its like you tell ur brain to be prepared for all that crap, yet the game still manages to build up the tension and give u plenty of scare. While my fingers were busy clicking n shooting away at them and "them" i was spewing plenty of expletives at the scares i received. damn. i think i'm just hum la. but really, you should give it a try and u'll see what i mean. the graphics requirements r nt high. anyway, while the exp carried on the story, it did not have any new developments. it was pretty disappointing in that sense.

Oh i went to run on wed. it must be the 1st time in 2mths? really been lazy cause studying for exams. No such thing as no time one. its only i lazy lor. a pathetic lack of determination. coupled with the snacking n Coke, i've put on a lot of weight. even my mum who sees me everyday says i've gotten fatter! i'm overweight now!!! HAHAHA...

i ran 4 rounds on track la. it was so slow i couldnt believe it myself. i mean i cant use the fact that cause i cycled to the stadium (which isnt that near) i used up most of my blood glucose which made me lethargic. slow means slow. while its too much of an embarrassment to tell u how long i took, i can say that it was slower than my timing for 1.6km in pri6!!! oh my. pri 6 lei. like i'm sure. pri 6 was 10yrs ago lei... n my pri 6 is not slow one lor... hai...

well if u too long nvr run, you really need a couple of sessions to get up to mark. I know cause i've had 2 pretty long rehab periods. well by the time i get to where i want to be, then term will start again and the unhealthy lazy cycle starts again. hai...

i hate decembers la. and i hate christmas too. they suck. i think shldnt elaborate too much la. its super loser. i hate dec though thats my bdae month. like yo. anyway, i'll b getting a new watercooling kit that i've ordered over the internet. It'll b my bdae present for myself though it'd involve a lot of case-modding and lots of time. dunno y i like to zeng my com so much? for wat sia? everytime after spending so many hours on it, i'd ask myself that. dunno maybe i like the challenge? but well, once u start tweaking your com, theres really no way back...

dun like bdae celebrations la. i dun have nice memories of them. and i dun need anything. what i need i have. but what i really want is something $ cant buy... sad-ded... : (

How come liddat?

2006-09-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm. really 7 wks just passed lor. not enuff time to slp where can blog sia?

i had quite a bit of tuition to give in august. 3 kids then all having prelims n stuff. n got 1 NBPCB thing happened to me la. insulting lei. termination by SMS. wtf sia. grrh.......

had this ridiculous amount of work to submit la. formal lab report, some crap electronics lab, tech comm wayang stuff. then had 4 quizzes in 3 days. then all is cheem2 stuff one. not easy. i even had to pon 1 day of sch just to hide in sch to study lor. first time in uni that i pon any lesson lor. 1st time pon then is 1 full day liao. felt guilty la. first time my life sch day supposed to have lessons but i stay at hm... hai...

macam is exam liddat sia. if the next half of the sem liddat sure b4 exam burn out one. will die-ded lor. somemore i all the way lag in my tuts except for electronics. tts cause i mon nvr give tuition, so can do till 2am on tues to prepare for the tut.

i oso felt damn guilty la. go tut n copy all the ans with work undone. GUILTY. hai. first time oso lor. for the entire 1st yr, i do every tut of every subj b4 the tut lor (which was y i was hiding in my room all the way... :'( ) then is almost all correct one. now tell me go copy, really not accustomed sia. hai... dun want tt feeling lor...

now 1wk term break then must catch up lor. clear the backlog. if not exam time come where got time to slowly slowly take 1 hr to think abt one tut qns sia? last time is cause too many tuition to give. wkdays or sat sun oso no time to do work. now smart liao. all put on saturday unless got exams coming up then will give extra lessons on wkdays or when i on term/sem break. ha... if not i sure gone liao.

those quizzes i only studied enuff to handle them la. u ask me abit more i sure dunno one. hope those tt i managed to write something down got correct la. if not... gone f lor. i dun really want more spiders to f... hai...

anyway like i told my frens, "u make ur own choices". u wanna copy/improvise your fren's ans during quiz is ur daichi. i'll always try to help ppl out. help them handle the quiz la. not say i genius during quiz everything oso knoe how to do la but if i knoe how to do i'd help lor... not say other ppl copy then u must follow suit, but if ur quiz f up, when it comes to exam time ur grades will be affected severely. copying is wrong, but tts the reality in life lor. u decide wats best for urself. if u think copying can pull u thru and u dun feel any guilt or suffer from a pricked conscience, its ur prerogative man. i'll still help out whenever i can. cause you never knoe when u'll need others' help. maybe one day my turn to need help lei?

but anyway if u r given an obvious chance to "make changes" by the ________, and u dun take it, its u kum gong lor."In life you must learn to be flexible; steadfastedness wun get you far."

oh but i draw the line at exams la. exams strictly no "improvisation" of any sort lor. tt one is really cannot cannot la. if i really dunno i wun request for help lor. if i dunno how to do means i'm lousy, simple as tt. i will accept it one lor. hahaha...

so the best is if quizzes every1 can get roughly equal results cause ppl all have different amts of time to study lei. so many other committments. not fair on those ppl who really wanna work hard but no time to do so. i understand tt feeling lor. then exam can be the best judge wat. cause b4 tt at least got few wks to mug then really no excuse lor...

glad all the quiz crap is over la. now at least can slack at hm. slp till late late. hahaha...

well... JC A-Levels stress my LJ lor. dunno who are the PCBs, keep on spreading this bit of misinformation. JC u have 2 yrs to cover a wide variety of concepts but its all just scratch the surface only. even if u dun understand the problem at all, u just put in effort, whack formula n memorise oso can get A all the way wat. then somemore b4 A-Levels got so many mths for u to mug. u come to uni. the amt of material we cover in 1 sem is like how f-ing alot? wun lose to the 2 yr A-Level curriculum lor. then its all cheem2 difficult stuff one. worse is b4 exams u have like 3wks to really put in max effort only. i'm sure its enuff lor. so to ppl who say and agree tt the JC A-Levels are tough and "the most stressful phase of your life", please wake up ur ideas!!! bunch of imbeciles. pui.

Read the news? all the wayang shit education system again. MOE's "Masterplan of Awards for Schools". like wtf. Award for Character Development. I knoe la. u all want to show ppl u not only care abt results only so u come up with even more awards to diffrentiate the schools and come up with a finer distinction rite? for wat sia?

all the principals do it cause they wanna win more awards put on their CV then can move up to SuperScale asap wat.the students all wayang along cause they oso want to have many many "chop" in their Merit and Honour card n the perks tt come along wat. better yet if mention in the papers put ur face n card there big big. next time can put in resume. wayang sia. wtf.

Now schools also going for wat? ISO certification, People Developer and all tt kind of wayang things. Y? for the reasons above? when has the good old simplistic educating of young ppl gone to? u think the students care wat kind of big awards those adults hanker after meh? u think they care whose hand the principal shakes when they receive their certification ah? pls.

If i were a student, i'd be grateful if the teachers all put in effort to help me understand all the concepts, encourage and motivate me; the sch administration put in place a system tt gives me the best chance of scoring in exams can liao wat. why shld i be bothered abt all the adult wayang stuff?

Ya la. of course those ppl who are perpetuating this system will say tt when we are striving for all these awards/certification, we are in the process of making the process cum system betta wat. correct la. maybe its really true. but i do this kind of thing b4 la. the amt of manhours you put in is a lot a lot oso mah. then who is putting them in? must be got ppl to put in the hourse lor. who? teachers rite? need to teach kids then cant handle those recalcitrant pai kias liao still must do all this admin shit. u think they like meh? hai...

maybe i'm just extrapolating. but really. stop all these wayang-ness man. go back to the real roots of EDUCATION.

anyway just now went out with uni course mates. first time sia. took 1yr plus. haha. betta late than never. having frens is really much betta than loner loner all the way la. can talk cock, relaxing and laugh laugh abit then no stress liao... sometimes got free rides somemore... really appreciate my frens la. ; )

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2006-08-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

wtf? 6days then sch reopen liao. its amazing how the hols zooms past you. damn....

after fixing my com, i upgraded to a 250Gb SATA 3.0Gb/s HDD. so i decided to do away with my 2 old 80Gb HDDs. sounds simple enuff rite? not when a lot of shit compounds it... 1st of all, retarded Win XP does not have native support for 48bit LBA. so i got a big shock when the OS could only recognise the 1st 131Gb of my 250Gb. dun believe those uncle in the shops in Sim Lim Square. They knoe just as much as you and i. say wat install Win XP SP2 can liao. pui. after being worried sick for abt 2hrs and surfing ard for a solution, i went to Maxtor's website and got the answer i was looking for. a simple registry update would suffice.

ok. so i decided to move all my data frm those 160gigs to the new HDD. smooth n simple with Maxtor's utility. after i did tt, somehow, the newer 80Gb abt 1.5yr old, failed. the BIOS just couldnt detect it. failed. didnt drop it or watever. the older 80Gb which was like 2yr old could still work fine. ironic sia.

well... good thing i managed to transfer all my data when IT happpened... (the 2nd shit thing) the pump for my Thermaltake BigWater 735 liquid cooling system (LCS) blew. it cooked in my face, with the smoke, smell and all............. NBPCB. they have known issues with tt damn pump one. so if u wan a LCS, go look elsewhere. Anywhere but Thermaltake look-good only products. pui.

heng i backed up liao. if not the following day, i wun have been able to sell tt older one away... but tts not the big issue la. its the pump. well i tried to remove just the heatsink for the CPU and fix on the Intel stock cooler. BUT PCB. this f***ed up LCS has this bracket that you are supposed to fix on the underside of ur mobo at the processor area. it uses some custom 3M adhesive tape tts super sticky. no way to take it off. so i couldnt fix the stock cooler cause the latches couldnt fix onto the underside of the mobo. regret getting this kit man. next time how to sell my mobo sia? my beautiful ASUS P5N32 SLi Deluxe... dulan... i thot could latch on. budden heng modern processors have thermal cutoff. if u nvr fix a cooler properly, and the CPU gets too hot, it'll straight away cut off its voltage n shut down. if not my Pentium D 930 oso gone...

tt following monday i had SCBE FOC camp (third shit thing). so i couldnt RMA the pump. tt camp oso another regret. not say waste my 5 days or wat la. i mean i was a photographer and got chance to use a Nikon D70 for free. quite song la. the freshies in my grp oso not bad la. took me in. notice i said freshies. the PCB GLs didnt lor. treat me like some foreigner tt was just tasked to do a job. outkasted by them. meeting times nvr tell me. post camp gatherings nvr tell me. NBCBs. dun say dun have my contact or watever. the photos were all with me, and i had to upload them to my "boss". can ask for my num wat. n during the camp called one of them. somemore 1 batch of CBE n BIE how small lor. esp those tt frm our batch join camp one only those few. u wanna get 1 person's contact like how easy??

eh cmon lor. i small little student helper. no points no shit. then treated like f by u ppl. i mean i can siam a lot of shit one lor. i didnt have to prone, get into the water and all sorts of weird positions just to take some good shots for u guys. i didnt have to lor. i could sit down rilek one corner and just use the marvellous zoom lens lor. and could have saved myself from criticism. my pictures are not perfect but its decent enuff for a photography noob like me k? wah now think abt it still hot sia. PCB.

next time nvr agree to do something too hastily. esp when u have arrows coming your way when u didnt expect it. and when ur boss doesnt shield you. and esp when others slack n you cant... Haste/Impulsion always precedes regret.

so after coming back frm the camp all sunburnt, i could settle on fixing my com (again). had to release the coolant at my expense cause the dudes said they didnt have a spare bottle to spare and they only replace parts due to manufacturer faults. expendables not included. angry sia. i no choice need to release the coolant cause ur loser pump spoil and had to remove it to send to u guys wat. dulan. but nvm la. i managed to change something i wasnt entitled to. at least i gained something... :D

i thot since the pump failed once could fail again mah. i went frm ang mo kio back to jurong west to an aquarium shop to get a water pump. but the pump for the loser 3/8" pipes the retarded kit uses are small in aquarium/water cooling terms. hence the pump cannot take too power one. then the following day went to simlim buy another bottle of coolant. ex sia. but its non-conductive and NON-CORROSIVE. not like some other brand's coolant... (another reason not to use thermaltake's LCS) so i happily fix up the LCS with my custom solution. but it failed. cause the pump pressure head not zai enuff. it causes a permanent airlock in the heatsink. performance would have been bad... sian la. so ll must fix back using tt damn pump again... k la. shldnt curse the pump liao. its still working well. :)

oh ya. and i went to manually lap i.e. sand the copper heatsink, progressively with sandpaper. dun believe the buffered and shiny finish u get when u get a new Cu heatsink. its machine buffered i.e. reflective but not smooth. its a different thing. you can feel the diff one, both physically when u slide ur finger along it and in the heat conductivity. manual lapping wins hands down. shall post pics of my heatsink and setup soon...

now with some decent OverClock for the FSB and GPU, i play game damn song la. all the latest whack games graphics maxed out with no lag. the feeling is great man... u shld try it.

other than my com which took up so much time (cant really say it was damn worth the time), been gamin and being loner at hm as usual. nothing has changed. only go out to give tuition and some rarely meet up with frens. well and i made a trip (actually 2), to help out my fren sweeliang to setup his new zai com. but CB la. i really hate going to tt damn sim lim la. so far frm here. so many ppl. hate the square design lei. tiring to walk.

well, not say i nvr make effort to talk to frens la. but most of my uni frens only appear during exams when they have something to ask/discuss lor... i got make effort lor.

hai... seriously, the no.1 thing i hate is reticence. it sucks big time man when u make an effort to communicate and all u get in return is a cold shoulder... esp when intentions are laid bare. its ok la. really dun expect much anyway... oh well... hmmm. losers must learn 2 accept it bah... guess i have... : ' (

lemme tell you why.

2006-06-26T01:05:00.000+08:00

been a while. came back hm. had to fix a new com. my old setup gave up on me after being moved back hm... retarded... thankfully, its settled. Now my CPU feels real cold. its WATER-COOLed... will upload pics when i can...hahaha...

then had to pack my room with all the stuff coming back. i absolutely hate to pack up my room to my mum's standards of tidiness. like yo... my standards of cramped workspace and tidiness differs alot frm others... hmmm...

yeah and i got my yr1sem2 exam results la. ok la. dropped a lot. deprove. dulan. but overall yr1 GPA still acceptable la...

a few days after tt, went overseas with mum and relatives to China. China really is a great place but i wont repeat wat every1 knoes abt it... rapid development, many Many MAny MANy MANY people everywhere (in the city), great scenery etc... oh. for the hotels in the larger cities, you can trust their certification. i.e how many stars hotel it is. At least frm wat i was told and seen in Guangdong province, it seems china govt recertified them all some time ago. first time i seen all the hotels (6 of them) having hot water kettles to cook water. whack sia...

i thoroughly enjoyed soaking in the sights and understanding a bit more abt the history. esp the famous and historically important people who lived in Guangdong province and getting a better feel about cantonese, hakka and teochew culture... thumbs up. : )

but wat was best about being in China??? It was the fact that when i was there, i could watch free football. live and around the clock coverage, previews and replays. CCTV-5 rocks!!! i thot i'd miss the World Cup by being away frm SG. the irony is tt i go there then can watch for free sia.

RTM 1 oso tio block liao. only a few days had 2 live matches screening concurrently then RTM 2 can receive the other lower rated match... PCB... which brings about my main gripe today...

NBCB. wat are SIngaporeans paying the annual TV license fee for? no1 knoes exactly wat MDA (IRAS collects on their behalf) does with our $110. no1 knoes. this kind of substandard shit local serials nvm. no free sports is unforgivable. no F1 oso... wtf sia. SG cannot buy and install your own satellite. then we cannot watch free football. football is the no1 game here man.

ok nvm. they say liddat you subscribe starhub lor. eh. starhub's subscribers need to pay more for WC coverage lor. i mean PCB la. SINGAPOREANS nvr ask last time SCV pte ltd (which starhub took over with you knoe who's approval) and the govt to approve and construct the cable network in SG. SINGAPOREANS oso no need and nvr request for some lan jiao artificial competition in the tv market wat. SG is like 4m ppl nia. wat kind of shit competition u want sia?

then our "best friend" mediacock. they everyday trumpet themself say Germany WC 2006 official broadcaster. devote so many advertising minutes for themselves. go gum LJ lor. must be no advertiser wanna take up tt slot then u no choice must fill in the time slot with some lies...

opening game + semis + final 4 matches. Goal highlights given to you by starhub u say until like such a big deal. wake up ok? just like all their tv progs. e.g. LOST. they say see it first on ch5. lan jiao understand? ppl fans dl frm net season2 watch until abt ep15 then u start broadcasting s2ep1. wake up man.

oh. and did every1 remember their wayang shit? mediacock tried to be nice ppl. they complain to MDA (i think). y only starhub have WC 2006 exclusive in SG? it was reported widely by the press. SPH really is their best fren la. ok. cause starhub negotiated and got exclusive rights wat. wat u whining abt? tts wat exclusivity is for man. and this higher premium in securing the rights is how starhub justified tt extra fee... maybe they are right. but i'm also sure they took the opportunity to generate more revenue than just simply defraying the cost la...dun blame the competition if u CMI. just like if ur exam results CMI, u dun blame others higher on the curve for being smarter than you; u shld blame urself and ask y u not as zai as others...

BUT. u know y i say their mudslinging is just WAYANG? do u knoe who owns Starhub? ST Telemedia (which is inturn owned by u know who), NTT Communications and... (drum roll)... Media Corporation of Singapore i.e. Mediacorp. yes. Ultimately, who stands to benefit frm the extra revenue generated? Mediacorp!!! its like they both argue over a mutually beneficial decision just to show ppl they are fighting for their consumers' rights. LJ wayang shit. so i tell u here, once and for all, their argument was a pure wayang activity designed to hoodwink us. trying to be nice? Singaporeans not so stupid to be taken in by you MFers one....

i'm so angry cause this shit wayang synthetic competition (in different market segments, but still the same dollar frm the consumer) supposed to give SINGAPOREANS better variety AND price selection. LJ lor. just means poor cannot watch anything... if liddat then MDA shld abolish the tv license for ppl who purely wanna subscribe to cable and let the rest of us poor ppl pay for the license and ll stick with the trashy mediacorp shows lor. fair wat....

oh just watched england-ecuador. beckham's FK really v zai la. but england played like shit. no rhythm, no attacking but still won. pui. so heng. they dun deserve it at all. nvm next match they against portugal or holland. ENG has no chance against either of them...

2006-05-18T16:55:00.000+08:00

just moved hm yest nite. siong lei. must pack and arrange stuff... my rm is ridiculously messy now...

been watching LOST s2ep20 n 21, Grey's Anatomy s2ep25-28. all damn whack la. so dramatic. no wonder ppl all ard the world dl it and fan-sub it to other languages...

i think LOST shld end by next season la. people dying lei... hahaha... if u wanna think abt it, the actual storyline isnt tt long lei. the majority of each individual episode's air time is taken up by flashbacks of each character's past and how they link together. links seem to be coming together nicely. if u watch every episode, u'd realise all the links are almost there liao... favourite scenes are those at the airport where they were in same queue and didnt knoe how intertwined their lives would become.

its a big psychological thriller la. whack. u see wat ur brain think u will be seeing next. spooky rite? just like the characters in the show see people frm their past on the island when they have no logical reason to be there...

grey's anatomy is like how dramatic? the plot is whack. twisting and turning. the reason they had 9 episodes for the 1st season was cause they didnt knoe how good people's response would be. the 2nd season is really steamier and more coherent. more continuation of storylines, not like the 1st sesaon when the only thing progressive was the main characters' character development. *clap clap*

In my opinion la, abc has got 2 big winners here la.

well i have no problems with america/american companies dominating the world culturally, technologically, economically and militarily. watever man. good for them. every nation in the world wants to be the dominant force man. who wouldnt?

but i have a very big problem when people try to copy them. i.e. import their stuff wholesale, copy their mannerisms. think singapore idol shit. like fuck sia. "see u at caldecott." pretentious bitch. copy-cat sia. cant think of anything original to say meh? anyway she was trying to copy his "see you in Hollywood." "in" and "at" very big difference lei. "at" means i can stay at the gate wave to you at Caldecott. i'm at there what. "in" means i'm actually in there competing. it makes a world of difference lor. english buay kan go hm slp la. dun talk on tv. copy oso must have seh. boh seh wanna copy wat sai?

ya and dun give shit like oh i was so surprised when they told me to be a judge. bugger off la. with ur pretentious personality, (its got a lot to do with the image i.e., the hair) i'd have surmised that you or your company begged the sg idol organisers to give you a role so that you can have more chances to appear on tv. so audiences can remember you exist. restore your flagging album sales? that is if you had any to begin with. hahaha... pathetic sia. pui.

ok back to packing... yawn. i think i go slp first la... hahaha... but i dun wanna hear my mum nag...
argh.....

2006-05-18T16:26:00.000+08:00

I'm always right. Any1 didnt watch Champions League final just now? HAhaha...
Henry is not a big match player la. His performances in the previous finals he was in with arsenal were pathetic la. just like how he performs for France in international games after Euro2000. Pathetic Shit.

hes just not a big game player. 70th minute one-on-one with valdes then wat? hum jee blur dunno where to put the ball hit it straight at the keeper. its miles away from his regular spectacular and heart-stopping performances in other games...
hahaha...

i've always said he is not a striker. feels great to be vindicated. = ) He is just a v v v v skillful forward who can do everything on the pitch except score simple goals that others make a career of. he mostly scores spectaculars. its good when ur team is up. but in a cup final, u r expected to put the simple chances away man. simple as that. other than the first 5 minutes when was playing at his usual standards, he was non-existent.

hes also not a leader la. down to 10men then he oso never really motivate n inspire his team lor. arsene wenger only made him captain cause he was threatening to leave and he'd hope that making him captain would endear him more to the fans and vice versa. so he wun leave la. I was surprised Sol Campbell was overlooked early in the season when he was still fit. Henry is just a disappointing shit. LOSER.

well i really did hope for an arsenal win. i like arsene wenger and all the young stars. respect la. all younger than me lor. and play like world beaters. just look at fabregas and eboue. like how zai? but too bad. their "talisman" froze when it mattered.

anyway if arsenal won then he would have moved on to barca mah. cause he'd have nothing left to achieve at arsenal. u think leading the team out at ashburton grove in the new emirates stadium is a big deal for him meh? Nou camp got 90000 fans lor. 30000 more than tt new stadium. the atmosphere there wouldnt be anyway poorer than in the emirates stadium lor.

but since arsenal lost maybe he'd think something is not complete and he might just stay. but please lor. he was macam best chums with eto'o and ronaldinho lor. eh cmon la. they r ur opponents lei. if u'd grown up with them or were teammates before or play for the same national team then like brothers ok la. but no lor. u got see they like how close or not? i think tts unprofessional. away from all the cameras and zoom lenses its his private affair la. like yo u knoe? there were like hundreds of tv cameras covering his every friendly exchange with his opponents on the pitch lor....

must be conspiracy la. they were playing with his mind. "eh if u score against us hor, then the chairman wun wanna sign u la. remb wat happened to Ahn Jung Hwang when perugia sacked him for scoring the goal that knocked out italy in world cup 2002? hAhaha...

Surprised?

2006-05-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

Hardly surprising rite? so the PAP won. yeah. but their total percentage of votes dropped frm 75.2% to 66.6%.

Can we draw a comparison? They say cause 2001 was after Sep 11 so singaporeans trust PAP for national security. then give strong mandate. Then they say oh cannot compare la. tt one was last time with PM Goh. This time is new PM. PM Lee so cannot compare the results. like yo? coherence please.

lemme tell u y la. ppl tio fed up over all the "Biggies" relentless attack on James Gomez for 7days. i mean for wat? maybe he was deliberately lying. maybe he really made an honest mistake. Whether he did in fact got his Minority certificate was irrelevant. The most poignant thing is that the Elections Department did not see fit to rescind his status as a candidate mah.

the WP oso damn smart la. strategic. they didnt fall for their bait la. if they all got embroiled with that issue then they cfm gone liao la. they apologise. short simple comments then ok liao. voters move on. most citizens think the issue was minor man. for wat get stuck with it? then bang. 7days later the PAP knew that they not falling for it n the voters were not that concerned with the issue. then press conference say oh we shall now go back to the national issues. ok lor. singaporeans can think beyond the official media u knoe?

PM Lee got 66.13% for his AMK GRC. erm. i personally think its abit... surprising lei. cause the super young new bird team WP sent there was widely perceived as a distraction for him la. then suddenly the WP there got 33.87%. must be the cute glenda han factor la. oh my... 2/3s in any election from your own stronghold anywhere around the world hardly qualifies as a strong mandate rite? dun hide behind the overall showing as a defence. If u cant dominate your own area, how to convince ppl u have a strong mandate?

erm the aljunied grc one Geroge Yeo get 56.08% nia. i felt sad. among all the cabinet and "BG and Rear Admirals" in PAP, i think he looks and talks and acts like the most sincere type of guy la. to think he has to live with the label as leader of the lowest winning PAP GRC? i think not fair. must be the WP chairman sylvia lim fierce la. shes charismatic.

Oh the WP n Mr Chiam See Tong all v gracious sia. they all congratulate PAP in those seats they lost la. PAP didnt really think much of the Opposition lei. (well some1 would have his reputation take a v v v big hit for not delivering either of the opposition constituencies rite? he said so himself... sad la.) They nvr congratulate the 2 opposition candidates who won. like yo. all just win liao say thanks voters. PM was quite reserved in his praise of the opposition lei. shld say more la...

its hardly surprising the Potong Pasir guy Sitoh Yih Pin lost rite? He got even less for this election than the previous one, percentage wise (he 47.6% drop to 44.16%). knoe wat he said? he congratulated Mr Chiam on his win. Then he ended with "Wish him good health" zhu1 ta1 shen1 ti1 jian4 kang1. like yo. so sacarstic. so insincere. cause they were playing on Mr Chiam's age n possible failing health wat. tts v ungentlemanly... boo.

PAP say wanted to elaborate on NKF lei. Boh lei. dun say its cause oppposition nvr challenge you to bring it up. the voters would be interested to knoe wat the PAP govt did right rite?

SDP can all just pack up and go hm la. all lower than oppostition average. 22% cf with 35%. y? cause ppl associate SDP with that "ah siow dr" and his sis. all so negative and fierce. for wat? its not the way to achieve anything in our society mah. look at WP lor. see how they work. maybe everything sdp say is true and the govt is really wrong. but have the balls to back it up la. if u had released your evidence along with ur defamatory stuff then maybe u'd have more credence wat. all talk no evidence you cfm end up in court one mah. retards all of them. they give opposition a bad name man. pui.

there was never any doubt in any1's minds who would win la. maybe people really wanted more opposition this time round la. every single place where the oppostion went percentage increased la. maybe its gonna be a trend??? well... you never knoe...

anyway i remb those punkass ppl who spoke to MM Lee in such an insolent way la. PCBs if u really feel so strongly against the govt, have the balls to join them and mould singapore according to the way u spoke la. i knoe i dun have the balls la. but please. dun talk so much if u are just hiding behind your glasses and 7 poison pens (7 journalists mah). wake up spineless asses... pui.

you think dun have PAP will have Singapore today meh? If you really want a credible and an opposition with quality, join them la. dun just talk. ACT. Be grateful for the Singapore we have today ok?

0215 latest: How did PM Lee knoe that anchorvale and fernvale (if i remember the names correctly) being younger estates in his GRC, voted in a "uniform pattern" (to quote him), when comparing their voting patterns with the older estates in his GRC? Voting patterns really really that easy to "guesstimate"? Are they in hold of information that only they have? Is voting secret? I dunno mah. i not involved in any process... btw, PM can gimme 4 numbers? thanks...

wah glenda han si peh cute sia!!!
; )

No feeling.

2006-05-06T01:30:00.000+08:00

exam over lo. thurs last paper. no feeling. completed GTA: San Andreas. no feeling oso. i'd have thought after exam cfm fucking happy one. but no lei. same. maybe its bcoz i've been playing all along la. now no aim no shit. feel like a lonely loser sia. damn. i this loner only have studies to work towards. you take my exams and books away frm me, i'd be left with nothing man. sadddded...

Some of my "friends" are only frens during exams la. in between the papers during the study period, i got so many friends sia. msn, sms and call la. wah got qn to ask then suddenly remb got this friend can help u solve prob. some of the ppl who ask me huh havent communicated with me in any form for a few months lor... just like gahmen 5yr 1time then remb u exist then give u many goodies only.... hahaha...

then after exam all pah boh liao. nvm la. last sem already liddat liao. used to it lor...

i think this time GE i oso no feeling. i here no need vote la. the rest of singapore (esp those living in the richer end of SG) seems to feel west side here is some kampong. even GE oso no opposition wanna come here and fight.

i think the opposition v cham la. everytime kena bang left right and centre by the "biggies". they are right when they say they must sue if they find something libellous in wat they hear. cause if they dun act, the ppl would think tt tts the truth. correct la. budden again, they are never content with winning. absolute domination is the aim.
zhan3 cao1 chu1 gen1. kill all the opposition. trounce them.

the mass media oso not fair la. wat the govt ministers n the men in white say, they will give u "blow by BLow" account. in full detail. then wat the poor opposition say they will only give u the absolute gist of it. they dun want to be labelled as biased mah. but hey singaporeans got brain to think one la. the more u wanna trounce the "non-whites", the more u dun wanna give them space to express themselves, the more ppl would be willing to hear them out. and maybe, just maybe cross the "wrong" box...

from a broadcasting perspective, it is reasonable that the cameras' main focus is on the speaker in the rally. budden wat the mass media fails to show you is the UNBELIEVABLE number of people attending the opposition rallies man. you have to be there to believe it man. i wasnt at any cause i had exams and was in hall all the way. i didnt quite believe it when my mum said really got alot alot alot of people. i only believed it when i saw the pictures. try http://sgrally.blogspot.com/... tio stunned...

even PM admitted there were a lot of people at opposition rallies. he didnt admit there were more la. then he pointed out greater attendance doesnt mean more votes. yes tts true. but but. if those people at those rallies were in fact residents in the constituency being contested, u imagine maybe a small % of them crossing the "wrong" box. tt'll be something man... + u add up those ppl who normally sympathise with the "other side", well there could be a fight.

PM says its because he doesnt have to wrestle with a significant opposition in parliament, that he can manage the country so well. again, you cant say hes wrong. of course hes trying to convince voters that its the truth n u shld vote for his party. but u should consider the merits of his statement.

u look at chinese taipei. they all whole day fighting over city council, mayor, legislative council, presidential election and wat have you. look wat their democracy has brought them. yes they still have abt 7% economic growth but they have gradually fallen behind an economy like south korea's. y? cause last time DPP opposition they dunno wats good for the country. so they keep on reducing their work hours per wk. i think its 46 now and raising their employer's contribution to their employees' accounts. then the KMT not used to being opposition. so wat they do? to prove that they got zo gang ("do work") they oppose the motions or worse, table counter motions and get it passed. eg. supposed to reduce work wk to 48 one. but kmt say 46. supposed to raise employer's contribution bit by bit yearly then suddenly become 2% outright. cause y? they wanna show they doing work. they wanna show they are opposing. wanna make the majority party lose face. more importantly they wanna gain political capital at the expense of national interest. so wat happened? productivity and cost of business go up tremendously then their economy not doing as well as it should...

you think about it la. do u really want to leave your country in the hands of a significant opposition with no big experience in corporate/national governance?

i definitely will watch the broadcasts all the way tmrw la. i think those men n women all now cannot slp la. they must be thinking "wat if tmrw really so suay?" hahaha...

The facts of life.

2006-04-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

Blog frequency low sia. tired. exams coming oso. my exam start 12th. then wkend when i go hm do wat? slp n slp nia. rilek.

watched the "dare to ask PM Lee" prog on ch 8 on sat. was very informative. but i didnt really like the style of presentation of the prog and jack neo's comments to the press that were published on sun... dun think can anyhow say wat i really think la. they dun allow blogging in jail rite? haha...

no disrespect/offence meant but did u guys notice PM Lee's fingers? his four fingers were about the same length. ya. the last finger oso almost as long as the rest. tts v rare man... perhaps this exceptional feature helps explains y hes a ren2 zhong1 zhi1 long2... yup.

oh u guys knoe? on 01 APR NTU became autonomous. Those lofty aspirations mentioned were indeed commendable. But as with any new project in business or watever, everything costs money. so new projects = need to raise more capital= higher every kind of fees rite? its simple maths mah. i just hope they make good on their promise when they say they have more flexibility in administration/raising capital. I hope that EXCLUDES raising school fees at their whim and fancy...

nowadays keep on seeing more and more butches. si peh er xing lei. its your freedom to dress in watever way u want la. but wake up lei. if u really wanna be guy u pay $ go sex-change op or u somehow grow a lanjiao out la. then u can be a guy all you want man. pui. if not stay with the sex u were born with la. pls...

i was watching the campus superstar on tvmobile. interesting. then i listened to FM 89.3 when i didnt have a tv. well aside frm the male and female winners' obvious singing edge over their respective competitor, the male and female champ were cfm one liao lei.

i didnt have to hear them sing to knoe they would be crowned. cmon lei.

its a fact of life la. peicai sec vs chinese high+nanyang girl's. ITE vs KC. how to fight? most of them stay where? Bukit Timah and Marine Parade/east side lei. Their lao peh 1mth/1wk allowance give them how much? you all how to fight with their $? hai... sad sia. i was rooting for the underdogs la. but too bad... facts are facts.

anyway all these dumb students damn gong sia. You knoe whos the real winner in this equation not? Mediacorp + tt company who handles the phone calls (cant remb which). The competitors made use of the campus superstar platform to further their singing ambitions. in turn they let mediacorp make use of them to profit. thats FAIR. but those ginna in schs all so kum gong. their parents work so hard give them allowance then they spend on this kind of shit popularity contest. This is how those PBs make use of kids with too much disposable income. f***ers.

wat confirmed my view was that they reset the vote count after the male n female champs were crowned. Obviously they wanted to entice more kids to vote rite? if you ask them they would tok cock n say oh we wanted to level the playing field and make it a straightout dogfight between the 2. but pls la. beginning ppl knoe you were only going to select 1overall winner rite? so even if the votes were not reset, if tt punk really had more support, he'd have won no matter wat lor. no need start frm zero he'd still have gotten more votes wat. its just tt they wanted to generate more revenue la. PCBs.

I really wonder y MOE allowed the competition. They might not have sanctioned it, but i think its definitely within their rights to prohibit this shit from happening in the first place. cause all public schools, their names, everything material about a sch, is property of MOE. they can stop mediacorp using anything related to the sch's names wat. Dun they knoe the detrimental effect this dumb competition had on the kids in sch n the contestants? kids talking about the competion, kids dreaming abt it, kids supporting their frens etc. all pulling them away frm studying. PBs.

eh tt punk. i tell u la. theres a big difference in singing falsetto and still sounding like a male (think along tao ze's lines) and sounding like a high alto or an ah guah lor. i mean other than the fact i'm really jealous i'll nvr have that vocal quality and that range, i must bring your attention to that lor. i think his voice is closer to the latter 2. ppl say until he how shen. v good but not shen. admit he zai la. i cant sing in that range or have that kind of sound la. ever. i knoe i'm the pussy guy hiding here typing away and criticising. haha. well but ppl have different preferences. i guess ppl rarely see eye to eye with me. haha.

oh ya. i think ppl stay in bukit timah still much richer than those staying in marine parade la. hahaha... thats y the dude won oso.

enuff of bitching and lowblows liao. well i liked the teresa's voice la. its those kind of vocal quality i really like. v clear crisp tone. best. then her duet with the junyang oso v good. the harmony quite zun. i think her looks the best in the competition too... but seriously, she really lost out on singing technique and in her general performance la. so in a sense, i must concede that the best singer won the day. good for him.

exams coming. prob wun blog anytime soon. wish me luck! ; )

wildlife in my room

2006-03-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

Nice rite? =)

Still have a nice woodpecker residing at the tree right outside my room... hard to take lei...

2006-03-02T20:36:00.000+08:00

nothing has changed. still not many frens. knee still fucks. but the more you come to terms with your inadequacies, imperfections or disability, the better you can handle tt fucked-up despondent feeling. Accept it, and learn how to to overcome it.

Sometimes i wish i dun have to wake up from my dreams. my dreams are always so sweet. so nice. an idealization. but well, we all have to wake up someday... damn...

Headlines for the past 2 weeks have been dominated by the new worldwide phenomenon, NYPTammy. Tammy sex video. Home-made one!!! i'm not kidding. ppl ard the world really do knoe abt the handphone video man. She has made SIngapore famous sia. People around the globe must be wondering what the furore here is abt.

I oso dunno wat the fuss is abt lor. I agree with her wholeheartedly when she tells the press that she did nothing wrong and refused to make any apology. Yeah. Technically, she did not err. She just took a private movie using her handphone man. Isnt tt wat handphone manufacturers intended when they mass-produced video-capable handphones? Somemore she evidently didnt seem to have been coerced into the film lor. Btw, she must have been well-advised. Cause she made a police report about her stolen handphone. Which was a great move cause any1 who releases any form of porno in Singapore in watever medium, is liable for some serious damages. So legally she wasnt a willing party in the "artistic video's" release. Hence absolving her. Clap.

Budden she really damn dumb la. This kind of thing must fast fast remove from handphone mah. Transfer from hp to com if she really wanted to keep it. Afterall, the probability of losing or having your handphone stolen with compromising stuff in it is way higher than your com being hacked into and having confidential info taken frm it. No brain sia. ok. shes fucking dumb.

Well but our society oso very strange la. Y the press keep on ka jiao her sia? Wat about the ah beng who was obviously enjoying himself? Wouldnt it be logical and fair that the press interview and get his comments? yup. On a sidenote, his "member" huh, really respect siallllllll !!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha...

My fren say heng there was another news headline tt took the heat off her man. The death of S. Rajaratnam. It certainly brought the spotlight off her for a while man. if not she'd have been on the major dailies for a few more days...

Well the death of S.Rajaratnam brought certain things in focus. Mr Rajaratnam will forever be remembered as the leader which gave us our National Pledge. The pledge contains his ideals for a society that was "race-blind", "language-blind" and "religion-blind". For those who forgot, its "regardless of race, language or religion, to build a democratic society...." Yeah. Strong and powerful words.

I must say Singapore is a really tolerent society when it comes to racial or religious differences la. But tolerance does not equate to racial/religious integration la. Many of these issues are "swept under the carpet" for fear of offending any group. Its oso cause of the interest of maintaining peace for the continued economic prosperity of Singapore la. I cant say if its the best policy or a win-win one but i'm a results person: If a method serves you well and can withstand the test of time, it MUST be good.

The past month was dominated by the blasphemy of the Muslim prophet, Prophet Mohammed. All those ang-mohs got no fucking CB brain sia. Their brain grow where? in their big asses? Wah lan. Press freedom/freedom of speech is very different from insulting a religion. Islam has something like few hundred million followers around the world lor. Even i ah, a non-muslim, oso know that any pictorial description of the Prophet or Allah is strictly prohibited sial. Why do you think the only adornment on mosques are Islamic scripture? You'll never find any pictures inside lor.

Then these retard angmohs publish these cartoons which not only depicted the Prophet pictorially, it even had him wearing a turban with a BOMB. like wtf siA? Liddat its akin to saying all Muslims are terrorists lei. i hear of the news on BBC World Service i blur sia. Rioting, burning of the Danish flag and boycott of Danish products in many parts of the Muslim world were all part of the reaction. Its hard for non-Muslims like me to understand the depth of their emotions, though its not hard to comprehend why.

Liddat how to have world peace? LIddat osama will have 10k more recruits everyday man. then more bombs and more misunderstanding by angmohs lei. The cycle will just go on you know? I'm sure cycles are not a strictly Buddhist concept lor... hai...

ok la. not my daichi to think so much la. so long as i in my "well-protected greenhouse" (i.e. SIngapore), can study got job got $ got cai, peace between the races and everybody prosperous got $ to happy happy can liao la. I dun really give a fuck what happens around the globe man. Singapore is a really small nation. We cant even bend the region to our will, much less influence the world man. so care so much for wat? I only small undergrad. no power no shit. just keep quiet and stick to my role as a student can liao... HAhahaha... =)

The lack of.

2006-02-07T20:48:00.000+08:00

Only when u come to uni will u understand wat it mean by scarcity of time. Even if u dun slack at all and do work non-stop, the work just cant be completed man. its that unbelievable.

n i still have the damn maths homework to complete. like yo...

2nd.

2006-01-10T01:24:00.000+08:00

Yes. its 2006 now. i'm in sem2. i'm still loner, choosing to stay in hall on this hari raya haji public holiday till dinner time. My knees r still CMI. Well, basically nothing has changed...

i'm finally at the 2nd guy on the Blacklist of Need for Speed: Most Wanted. Took a while. those stupid milestones r really tough.

I mopped my room for the 2nd time just before the sem started. Should be my 2nd and last time mopping this rm... hahaha...

Its ok to be told u r 2nd choice in watever you are involved in. Just so long as ppl are frank to me, i'm cool. dun waste ppl's time mah. Wats not ok is being discarded like some trash 1 moment and being suddenly told you r impt. I mean go n fuck spider la. I knoe i'm not good enuff, so u just have to tell me in my face mah. not tio "sly" like i was mah. fucking PCBssss.

Throughout the dec hols i seriously thot my knee was ok. Cause i discovered the wonders of a patella brace! I wound my knee with 3M's transpore tape. Cheap and 100% efficient. whack. i did so for both knees. for the first time since i injured my knees, i got the feeling back. The feeling of my knees when i was in sec2! It was when i felt truly free. Unstoppable. Tt feeling is really beyond description man.

Then reality crept in. A few days after the game, the familiar and disgusting feeling of tightness in the ligaments behind the knee came in.

While i do accept tt the patella brace was a temporary measure for me to play all out in the first place, what i did not expect was tt people's perception of you last forever.

Just because you told ppl u had a knee op b4, u have a niggling pain now and then and you require a brace/guard to play in a sport, ppl assume you are forever incapacitated. Like fuck lor. The reason ppl like me put on guards and braces is to be able to compete on a level tt is similar to normal ppl. Cause it absolves us of the horrendously irritating pain we always have. We are slightly handicapped, but not to the extent that normal ppl think we are. SOmehow, subconsciously or consciously, normal ppl are fixated with the notion that ppl requiring guards = useless ppl.

Anyway, there was a time before the "discovery" of the patella brace when i thot why was i trying so hard to prove that i am normal. Was i trying to prove to others i'm ok? Or to myself that i've fully recovered? I guess its a bit of both la. Then i had the brace and thot to go all out whack. and i could! the tightness behind the knee was expected and it was in no way worse than i was just doing simple jogging. so actually i'm quite fine wat.

But wat i didnt count on was the perception ppl have of me man. dun i deserve a chance even? i guess not. no1 is willing to take a chance on a weakling without any credible reputation. its like u've got into a car accident b4, the next time u wanna take a motor insurance, every company would charge a higher premium or not insure u at all. if not it wouldnt be worth their time. So its the same. There was nothing to gain for ppl to gimme a chance and the assurance i gave them was in their view, not credible enuff. moreover, they had everything to lose if i suddenly cui while competing mah. i might not be very fast/fit but i'm certainly not as slow as some ppl think i am. oh well....

Anyway even if i really wanted to push myself n train to my limits everytime my knees allowed me, the time i took to recover reasonably well to train again was just too long. I dun think the intensity or quality when i trained on my own is any different frm those normal ppl's. But even if i were immensely talented or watever (which i'm not...) i'd have lagged behind them. Moreover, i'd be up against ppl who are normal to begin with and have been physically active for a long time. i have not. and tts a fact. Well i'm 21 with 2 rubbish knees; the gap between some1 like me and just an average person is just so wide that any further amount of training on my part is just not productive and wun bring me to other ppl's level... Just cant compete at my desired level la... :'(

Its in my blood to prove people wrong. But there is always an exception la. Now i really accept it. Even if i feel ok, ppl always think i'm not. its ok. i can live with tt. I'll just exercise to keep fit. Just dun grow fat n be a dinosaur can liao la. ; p

my results.

2005-12-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

sem 1. ok la. 3 A+, 2 A, 1 A-, 1 B+.

More A+s than other grades. Ironic isnt it?

B+ for my Econs. KNNBCCB. I thot the paper was ok. somemore b4 the paper if u knoe u've scored 27 out of 100 b4 the exam, u'd be fairly confident of getting a result right? Its a result that will always stay with me lor. Stain. I'd gladly downgrade the A+s to A to make everything A lor. PCB. Shld have S/U-ed it. I thot since i 4yr course can S/U 4 subjs so shld have made use of it for Econs mah. Cause planning to minor then cannot S/U the subjs tt comprise the minor. so just nice could have S/U-ed Econs wat. Dunno wat the fuck was going thru my mind then man. PCB...

But hey. look at the big picture la. I have to be contented. : )

A- is the lab. If only i didnt take such a flippant attitude for the first few labs. haha. stupid me.

Phy was a "i'm sure. Like yo." paper you knoe?
well but i'm oso pretty sure there are many A+s frm others oso. Afterall, i wasnt the only guy who left the exam hall 1 hr b4 the paper ended.

I thot the Bio paper was like the hardest i've ever done in my life lor. i've nvr gotten anything above C for my bio all thru my JC lor. and tts a fact. i've only ever done 3 bio tuts b4 coming here lor. but i guess its cause the lecturers gave a clear overview on wat was gonna come out mah. so no excuses for not doing well.

All my life i thot my Maths was my strongest subj lor. My results dun agree with me. : ( was an A. Mat sci oso heng-heng get A. I suppose there are lotsa betta people out there.

yup. tts abt it la. well come to think abt it, if i didnt get this set of results, i really shld go jump or bang wall liao lor. I mean i stay in hall but dun join any "points-gaining" activities during term time. Everyday loner hide in room play game and study only. Loneliness is a great motivator!!! I'd have been a laughing stock if i didnt do well. Well if i'd known of another person who everyday hide in room loner and dun do well in exams, i'd have ridiculed tt person oso mah. Tts only fair.

N yeah. You do reap wat you sow... ; )

the day.

2005-12-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

well. to my frens who remb my bdae. Thanks a lot! zhan rui they all bought a book for me. WOw. i'm not so high brow la. gimme this kind of cheeem book. The Science of Good & Evil. Its a very good read... its quite rare for me to encounter so many new terms in a page man. hahaha...

yest went to get a belated bdae present of my own. a Timberland black slim wallet. cause my stupid billabong PVC wallet was damn cui liao.

well. to my frens who rembed my bdae. Thanks a lot!

Shag Cannot Think

2005-12-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

1st time in my life got this kind of "shag cannot think" feeling.

Physical training during my ns days was practically non-existent, so the prev time i had a proper training session with a team and a coach, was 6yrs ago. Yes. Way back in CSS.

Had track training then went for hockey training. I'm sure tt was smart eh?
given my shitty knees.

PCB sia. Super weak now.

Dun even think i'm typing/speaking/thinking coherently now. F.

I've been

2005-12-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

Watching LOST. yeah. its really damn whack. Every1 shld get their hands on it if possible.
On my last dvd liao.

something i must say over here. that Said character must be a genius man. i mean who can mentally figure out tt 17,294,532 iterations each approx. 30 secs would work out to 16yrs and 5mths? I checked, the show didnt lie. He did tt in like 1 min plus. I knoe its just a show but hey, i wun have been able to work it out tt fast man.

Oh yeah. I got my Sony Ericsson k750i a while back. Takes great pix.

Shes v fun to play with. Had to coax her, play with her for a while before i managed to get this nice pix. must be cause i'd just washed the cloth. haha...

About Me

2005-11-30T23:53:00.007+08:00

10 things about me that might or might not interest you.

1. Had ACL reconstuction ops on both knees. 2 ops. 2 patched-up knees. 2 missing hamstring tendons.

2. I'm a stay home type of person.

3. I'm alone most of the time. A loner in more ways than one.

4. Hates queues/crowds/big group activities. eg., I choose the shortest queue during meals.

5. I'm a prejudiced dick. I admit i detest certain groups/categories of people. But i'm sure the feeling is mutual.

6. Collects cheap and worthless plastic bottles. Yes. Believe it.

7. Loves sports, especially football. Supports Newcastle United Football Club (go on, have a laugh.) Enjoys watching sports on free-to-air tv.

8. Dislikes subtlety/hypocrisy.

9. Puts in lotsa effort in everything without much expectations.

10. Have a long/good memory. When i dislike some1 its 99% permanent. When i like some1, its likely to last a long long time...

In my free time (which is wat remains after studying) or when i'm home, i'd

A. run when my knees feel up to it, which isnt very often. : (

B. play PC games. Any game.

C. read.

D. rarely watch tv.

E. SLEEP.

scroll down to see y i chose this blogskin. yeah.

that should be all.

In Sch.

2005-11-29T14:26:00.000+08:00

Yeah. tts right. its the hols and i'm holed up here. its not tt i have something against my hm or i particularly like it here. Its cause this hols r so short. till 3 Jan nia. then i move my com back for such a short period of time feels dumb lei. somemore my hm no internet connection. so i LL stay here most of the days lor.

now relaxing sia. damn eng. have time to play game without worrying abt studying. Watch LOST on dvd (its damn whack. a must watch). Sleep and wake up when i want to. Whack TECHNO no need scared disturb others! Song sia this feeling. Havent had it for a couple of months liao. Now the feeling is back. so relaxed.

Well for the past couple of days, i must have been one of the few Singaporeans left in hall. felt sad la. tdy not so bad. ppl coming back frm hall's msia trip n for hall/sch games. the most amazing thing abt hall2 is the canteen. Its amazing and bordering on ridiculous, how many ppl there can be during meal times. I mean its the HOLIDAYS man. Most foreigners oso fly back liao. U mean NTU so many canteens all closed meh? I was there for lunch n it felt like the exam peak sia. so many ppl. THe food there not say super whack wat...

but anyway the feeling of eating there diff la. during exam time was to eat as fast as possible n go back to the books (strictly no "takeaway" during exams. NTU students shld understand...) Now is rush to finish cause 1., avoid the crowd. 2., GO BACK AND WHACK MORE GAMES!!! hahaha....

A New Beginning

2005-11-29T14:08:00.000+08:00

finally a reasonable looking blogskin. it doesnt look too bad does it? the super-cute bunny at the bottom of the screen is Cuddles frm Happy Tree Friends. So cute.

If u dunno wat HTF is, click on the link on the right hand side.

Y did i choose this skin? cause it looks simple and it has a yellow bunny eating ice-cream. the pastel colours look great too.

Yay! relaxing...

2005-11-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

The winner that i am...

Yup its more than a wk old. but still must show every1.

Predicting 0 goals has NOTHING to do with luck lor. I simply hate ppl who say i'm a tyco kia lor. I mean pls. u dun have the knowledge and the analytical skills, dun say other ppl r plain lucky. If u wanna depend on luck, you'd buy multiple outcomes for a match n hope it strikes. Thats other ppl. I make my guess n stick with it. N i strike. :)

Anyway i'd spare you the analysis la. Theres a reason behind every outcome.

Its quite obvious tt i'm blogging means i'm not studying rite? sucks man. but hey, i've been studying for quite a while lor. hee...

will change this rather un-reader friendly blog skin soon. when i really have the time after 25th. haha...

Just a note for every1: "Never bet an amount you cant afford to lose."

I need it.

2005-11-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

I'm in serious need of motivation sia. CMI. having ur papers spread out is ideal for studying, but it also challenges ur self-discipline. Its hard to think of studying when u see all ur frens relaxing coz their exams r over, the hall2 canteen being less crowded, the hall emptying out by the day and hearing the sounds of other ppl's recreation activities.

tt feeling sucks man. i still have econs on fri morn. my econs is the most blur one. so tt one need to study. but today after my materials sci exam i come back i abit sian. I didnt knoe how to do a few qns. tt feeling sucks big time. study so hard end up during exam oso got qns dunno how to do. study for wat sia?? PCB...

Well bio last fri n the phy paper b4 tt were fine. do-able. but as i always say, knowing how to solve an exam qns is diff frm getting the correct ans. will just have to wait for the results...

must study.

Hong Gan Si Liao

2005-11-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

NOw exams.

N i think i screwed Maths up liao.

4 more papers to go.

Study so hard for F?

PCB.

I'm trying to...

2005-10-12T01:22:00.000+08:00

Actually i had just finished watching the festivities of the Hall 2 Mid Autumn Festival. u must be saying like yo rite? its already a new lunar cycle and we r exactly halfway thru another full moon lor. so the MAF thingy is like 21 days late man. haha...

was actually there to hear the singing. didnt know there was talentime sia. hmmm... anyway, after so long of being surrounded by top-quality singers (excluding myself) n top-notch singing, its actually damn hard for me to keep quiet when hearing any "off-singing" from any1, myself included. It wasnt tt jia lat la. but me being the f-er i am, i simply enjoying criticising ppl, however right i might be or however unjustified my opinions are. well but thankfully, i was alone watching the thing if not my frens would have got an earful. anyway i really kept my opinions to myself. i'm just a puny loner in this new environment and i dun have any right to correct any1, however good i was or however lousy others are. keeping quiet is good lor. ; )

then i heard the hall choir sing. was euphemistically named acapella la. but yo. its still those standard PIRATED choir pieces lor. (Can some1 pls prosecute them? hahaha... i'm a f-ing bao toh kia...) Like difficult to sing lor. i'm sure i havent been singing them since a long time ago.

anyway being my usual self, i wished i was up there on stage, performing. Not say i'm super zai or wat la. just tt i'm pretty sure i could have added some value to the singing. but anyway i chose to leave my singing life behind, n its my choice. Again, dun ask y. So i cant blame any1 but myself when i feel like telling ppl singing on stage tt they r all CMI mah. Cause i didnt have the balls/ability to be on tt same stage mah. F lor, not say i didnt want to, but prick la. real dulan abt how things turned out. . Dun tell me to repeat the story y i wasnt up there man. Its never nice to mention names. And giving tt motherfucker additional publicity will only make tt NB PB look better rite? so relaxing la.

well it kinda made me feel i didnt belong to this happening environment lei. every1 like so keen to join something (for various reasons) n do well in them. i nvr join anything cause i not staying next yr n i wanna conc on my studies (which btw, i'm not doing too shabbily... (: ). just makes me feel left out. but its of my own volition mah. blame myself lor.

Sometimes i do get the feeling i shld be up there la. Or maybe out there doing more acctivities lor. but move on lei. stupid dick weixian. haha. i cant stop rambling... well its almost the same as when i'm watching frens playing football. outfield player. just simple kickabout or amateur competition. i mean i'm sure i can play as well as most ppl lor. but its true tt i dun have the balls to play lor. to really go out n give 100%. theres just too much to lose if i get injured man. if i tear my graft, who going to pay for my op sia? n my mc will be so long lor. wun be able to study. . so i dun play football or any sport which requires quick change of speed or direction (which is like every sport n game lor...). i knoe i can do it, but the risks outweigh the utility i'd get frm playing. but theres just something inside me tt tells me i should have be out there lor. bo bian lei. must accept it.

so now i try to stick to running on the track only lor. but even so my knee is really playing with me sia. wanted to train just now. but pain lei. knee didnt feel too good. sucks man. I cant run as often or as fast as i knoe i can cause of my knee. sad sia. i really CMI la. life has fucked me up pretty badly.

Then just now see ppl sing but i cannot go up n join in. make me gian nia. cant run, cant play well. no za bor oso. f-ing depressing. KNNBCCB-depressing sia. So wat do i do to handle all this shit? i shut myself out somemore n study even more. which i must say i've been pretty successful in doing. well my record of knowing how to do every tut qns in every module b4 every tut is still intact. n i intend to keep it for as long as possible lor.

when u r feeling sad or low due to non-academic stuff, the best way to do deal with it is to study more than when u were feeling ok. u'll be plesantly surprised how the chinese saying, "hua4 bei1 fen4 wei2 li4 liang4" holds true.

If you keep on harping on wat you life should have been, wat could have been, u're gonna b f-ing miserable man. not to mention sounding like a hopeless loser to every1 u relate ur stories to. more tutorials lo. move on prick... i'm trying to... really...

GOAL!

2005-10-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

i was in JP to watch the movie Goal yesterday. Alone as usual. Dun ask me y i was alone. Well at least i watched a movie with MYSELF. so tt makes 2 rite? haha. ok.

was a decent show. the storyline was not as hao siao (unbelievable) as i thot it'll be. only 2 v big loopholes in the story. The football action was convincing, especially the way the actual football footage and the actors' parts were combined together. good job. of course the only reason i watched the film was cause it featured NEWCASTLE UNITED, the TOON ARMY and ST JAMES' PARK. My club! : )

The first big loophole was when the US border patrol were chasing the male lead's (Santiago) family. I mean they included tt scene for the sake of their international audience which might not understand what they were doing. For example those goons who had just finished their promos/prelims. dudes. I mean isnt it f-ing obvious when the director chose to show the snakehead counting $, the father telling his family to take their stuff with them and leaving their homes in a van with many ppl in the middle of the night. of course travelling illegally rite? f-ing goons. but anyway the loophole is tt the border patrol which was in a jeep n spotted the illegals within visual distance. it warned the people to stop where they are. then somehow the ppl got thru and the movie cut to 10yrs later in LA. i mean jeep lei. n a few illegals on foot. u mean they all can run win a jeep meh? like yo...

this show was also a very standard father-son relationship show, with the son trying to gain acceptance frm his dad n those kind of stuff. standard. so the thing was tt the dad somehow knew the male lead, which was his son, was going to play in the next game against Fulham. SO he flew ACROSS the ATLANTIC to Newcastle-upon-Tyne to watch the game in a local pub. I thot he was watching somewhere in US cause the logo on the tv read "SOCCER". budden a local bloke bought him a drink which he declined cause it was too early in the day for him. to which the bloke replied "its never too early in Geordie (Newcastle)."

I had the idea he watched the game in US till the end of the show, when after his passing, Santiago's benefactor's (the scout which told him he had a chance of making it pro) daughter brought Santiago's grandma n younger bro to tt same pub in Newcastle his dad was in. The same bloke then related to his grandma tt his dad was there a wk ago, cheering his son on. So it was beyond doubt in the viewer's mind tt he actually took a trans-atlantic flight to heathrow the transferred to Newcastle Airport lor. They were a typical immigrant 1st generation Hispanic family making ends meet only. he where got abt USD 1k in spare cash to take the flight sia? Big big question mark man...

But i still enjoyed the show, cause maybe i enjoy solitude? haha. but anyway watch movie dun tok to frens one mah. then watch movie betta dun watch with me, cause even though i dun have any idea of the movie b4hand, i'd still predict the plot accurately, n tell u wats going to happen, n spoil ur watching enjoyment. my frens can attest to tt lor. haha...

another interesting feature was tt i think the casting producer took a deliberate attempt to cast the acting characters as closely to those in reality. Like SIr Bobby the manager and the bad boy who wore no. 10 (who was a pretty good player) previously at the club. n yeah. the santiago dude really looked a lot like the current Newcastle goalie, Shay GIven. Damn alike sia. just tt the skin colour diff nia. hahaha...

wondering y i'm so free man... haha...

Wah Lan Oei.

2005-10-10T12:54:00.000+08:00

KNNBCCB. I cant believe it sia. Last friday i discovered 2 more gers who r not bad one then all attached one. like wtf sia. i'm not asking for the sky lor. but it seems tt all the not bad gers all got bf liao sia. not say i hiam or my standard high wat. its seriously tt bad lor. i think its za bor hiam me lor.

i thot gers come uni then "turnover rate" sure damn high one. not true lei. sian. This just shows tt misfortune that befalls you wun neccessarily be repeated on others. As if tt statement needed proving in the 1st place. hai. CMI sia.

Anyway, another unbelievable fact: First time in my life my bio test marks get higher than my maths man. like yo. was damn stunned lor. well in my whole of JC i only did 3 bio tutorials, the first one on water, then genetics and biostatistics. Now with only 10 wks of sch, i've done 7 tuts liao lor. hai. am i hardworking or wat man?? i must be crazy to do so much bio hw...

Damn sad sia. I think the tendons in my knee are real crap man. cause i just run some simple slow intervals around the track only, after the session, my tendons cui. Hurt n strain like mad. Well the doc repaired my ligament but neither he nor the physios can change the fact i've been
running strangely for as long as i can remb or tt my tendons r lousy or my feet r rather flat. I dun blame any of the medical professionals who helped me. I dun blame myself oso lor. i've done all i can to recover well n lead a normal life. i feel happy just being able to run. i dun have to be some superstar. Well i'm just sad tt i'm weak. knees cui cant blame any1 one... sobz... :'(

Will change blogskin soon sia. its so freaking not conducive to reading. somemore my monitor resolution is 1280 x 1024. its a big irony tt the blogger cant view his own blog in all its splendour. hahahaha...

2005-09-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

Was feeling so high after the race tt i let the cat in. There r many cats ard in Hall2. haha. n i played with it for quite a while oso... Normally i play with it outside but since it wanted to come in n i was so happy, i let it in lor... hehe... ; )

2005-09-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

The 4 X 100m guys. Check out my bilateral ACL op scars. Never knew it was so obvious sia.

'05 SCBE runners. Oh did i mention? The gers were quite zai oso. Came in 3rd for both relays i think. Wow.

I dun think there was any1 else who was running and had 2 prior ACL ops for both knees. I'm really happy with myself. =)

Ah-Gua No More?

2005-09-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

haha. happy la. for 4 amateurs who dun train often n met each other only on race day, getting 3rd place with a sub 50sec (abt 49 +) is quite n achievement liao. In fact, i didnt even knoe who i was running with except for the sch track rep albert, until it was time to report for the race. we didnt practise baton passing at all lor. THe first time we actually passed the baton to one another, it was the during race. haha.

On a personal note, i'm v happy with wat i've done. A few mths ago i was still recovering frm my 2nd ACL op lei. the one on my left leg. Then i was doing physio. No way did i expect to be able to compete in any form lor. No1 likes the colour of bronze or silver, but well this must be the one time when i'm v happy with 3rd place lor. At least i've found something decent tt i can do well in. Hope i dun have to depend on "the other activity" for myself to feel like i'm of use lo.

My knees seem 2 be holding up well. Its the right one which was op-ed over a yr ago (!! how time flies sia !!) tts the more CMI one. Both knees r CMI u see... THe tendons feel sore n a bit inflammed lei. The knee generally feels damn tight n i cant walk properly now. But no worries. I knoe how to manage it. After being used to pain, i guess my threshold of pain is rather high la. haha.

Yest b4 i went to bed i was thinking how i was going to recover for the race after a "maxed-out" training session. Somehow i pulled thru lei. I mean tts with the help of alot of ice frm the freezer at hm, and a lot of heat rub massage on my knees to make them comfortable. yeah.

Well i ended up running 4 x 400m oso. But tt 1 i really buangz liao. CMI. When the baton was passed to me, we were still in 3rd place n looking good for a medal. i was the 2nd runner then when there was abt 200m to go, i could feel pain piercing thru both my thighs with every step i took. I had no choice but to slow down, if not i'd have ended up pulling up, dropping the baton n caused any hopes to evaporate sia. THen it seemed tt 3 other guys ran past me. hai. sorry guys. Ended up 5th i think. Apart frm not having enuff time to recover properly, I'm just not a well-conditioned runner. i'm lan4. haha. paiseh la... : (

I mean no1 ever say direct in ur face tt guys who join choirs r "ah-guas" la. But u just have tt stinking feeling ppl think tt way when u tell them u were frm choir la. Its just tt they dun put it explicitly lor. Ppl dun believe it when i say i'm frm choir cause 1. i dun have a nice crisp singing voice, 2. i just dun look like cultured or a cultural activity type of guy. Think i'm frm some sports or wat. Tts cause ppl have the pre-conceived notion tt choir guys or guys who join cultural/non-sport/uniformed grps are some weaklings or"ah-guas" lor. Tts a v wrong concept. Pls dun look down on choir guys. If u do, i'd come running after u. hahaha... (",)

Its not tt i dun want to...

2005-09-09T19:39:00.000+08:00

Seriously speaking, its not tt i've been deliberately neglecting my blog. its just tt the com n ntu's network has been conspiring against me. Its been preventing me frm creating new posts on blogger. like yo lor.

anyway tts when i have the time to try la. been v busy. will try to update more now tt its ntu's 1 wk term break.

i'm racing 4 X 100m relay for School of CBE tmrw afternoon. like yo rite? choir ah-gua mixing it up with guys who have been training for yrs n ppl who get to work out, keep fit n run during their NS days. i'm sure huh.

was just wearing my spikes n just sprinting for fun nia. then the SCBE track rep approached me n asked if i were frm SCBE (i'm Bio engine but its part of SCBE). n if i were, he would like me to race tmrw. haha. i tio stun for a while lor. i said yes n ok. then he gave me a time trial lor. haha... i shant put up the hand-phoned timed time up here for every1 to see. it aint a big deal or a super fast time for a 21yr old guy. ; p

blurred out now. well my maths flop, no za bor want me, me being the loner tt i am, at least some1 thinks tt i'm good enuff to be on his team sia. n i'm running 1st runner lor. like yo. i'm sure i've ever run competitively man. ; ) n i aint dreaming now.

packed up n going hm to rest now. i cheong-ed during my personal training just now cause i wasnt expecting to be competing. not least tmrw lor. damn. go back n rest n stretch . tata. Choir ah-guas reading this wish me luck ok? hahaha... = )

Vindicated.

2005-08-24T01:09:00.000+08:00

i havent been bloggin for so long tt i forgot how my blog looks like sia. its tt serious. so busy. time flies in hall. study a bit. tok cock with frens. surf net. check edveNTUre a bit. 2am liao. blur. havent been playing com games too. =(

i wun be staying in hall 2 next yr n many ppl have been asking me y. well i always tell them tt its cause my mum is alone at hm, for as long as i'm in hall. its tt simple. u wun understand how it feels to be sleeping at hm, all by urself, unless u've tried it b4. I spent 1 entire day in solitude a few mths back. i didnt see another human being for a day. Nor did i communicate with any1 else. Yeah. It didnt feel too good.its not tt i enjoy it, but loneliness just comes naturally to me. so i wun wanna do it to my mum too. anyway her scoliosis ard the T-LS region is damn jia lat. u have to see it to believe it. so its like every night i'm not at hm to give her a back rub, i feel quite bad la... :( n somehow her pain got worst over last wkend. so i think if i had been at hm maybe she wun have felt so much pain.... so i feel vindicated in my choice of not staying in hall next yr.

The most prominent charitable organisation in Singapore was in the news again. THe new management committee called in help frm "shang ye diao cha ju" (i read the chinese papers) but if i remb correctly i think its the Commercial Affairs Department. They were called in to assist in the investigation of the above-mentioned organisation's possible financial irregularites that were residue frm the previous management. No prizes for guessing wat kind of information they might dig out. It has also announced reduction of treatment fees for their patients which was a welcome move. They could only have done tt if they had sufficient $ rite? haha... well this debacle certainly vindicates my tirade against them a very long time ago. It always feels right to be proven right... :)

i'm supposed to study for my biomolecular eng quiz on fri morn. but i decided to blog la. destress. maybe i shall play game now. hahahaha... till next time.

wow.

2005-08-08T13:35:00.000+08:00

Its amazing the impact a photograph can have on u sia. U can be elated or devastated. For me it was the latter. I saw something tt was so damn saddening sia. dun wanna talk abt it la. been blurred out since last night.

This morn was a damn suay morn sia. My grp's lab result was so off and so far away frm the expected readings which all the other groups managed to get. Then after the seesion had to go for the lect. The exact moment we stepped out of the sbs building, there was a sudden downpour. a "tai yang yu" which lasted for all of 2 minutes. such a coincindence. then i went to lect saw this fren who was wearing the same shirt as in the photograph i mentioned above. like yo. wat kind of probability for all these to happen consecutively sia?

played inter-block soccer last wed. hall2 has 11 blocks, so its quite a big thing lor. i must say tt i've nvr played in the same team as so many skilful chinese guys. in singapore we normally associate good silky ball skills with malays, but my block guys were diff sia. oh man. so confident and skillful and fit. respect. so unlike me. i was just a little 'keeper lor. i've never been so well-protected when playing keeper. i think i only made 1 proper save. going for the semis on wed night.

oh did i mention? i think a lot of hall2 senior guys all damn zai. tall, shuai n fit sia. i'm serious. speaking frm a guy's perspective lor. then for a relatively short n not shuai guy like me, how to compete sia. hai. no choice lei.... haha...

still quite blurred now. just had lunch. gonna zzz b4 the next lect. ; )

oh man

2005-08-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

studying is tiring sia. havent got this feeling for a long time lo. esp listening to econs. cause i didnt take econs in jc n uni's principles of econs module is 2yrs of a-level work into 1sem. like yo. econs isnt hard la. the concepts are manageable but theres just so many new terms to remb. its worse than bio man. well i never knew u could come up with so many long stories from 2 simple intersecting lines with gradients of opposite signs. haha.

had my 1st lab lesson tdy. stupid cockster me didnt see the change in expt. spent a long time walking to the lab in SBS. i used instruments i havent touched nor seen in 2yrs n 8 mths n i was expected to be able to wield them with ease. like yo lor. i mean focusing a light microscope takes a lot of practice and some luck la. had enuff prac in bio lesson last time. but surely the curriculum planners cant expect alot of my other course mates who have never taken bio at A-level, to have a similar mastery over the instruments rite? it was like every1 was expected to do it with ease man. they shld have some intro lessons on use of lab instruments man. not just the microscope. hai...

anyway been busy editing the tracks VC recorded during last sat's prac. u can imagine how tedious issit to upload frm my Hi-MD in sony's selfish .ogm format then convert to .wav n finally to splice the tracks up. i oso triedf to do some equalizing but didnt have much success. its like all my time for the past 2 days taken up by this lor. n i have tuts to complete lor. sad sia. hai...

2005-07-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for so damn long tt i dun really knoe wat to say liao. The relief teaching was great. enjoyed talking to kids n seeing them recognise me frm my previous stint. interesting ppl. Was busy with packing my rm cause was abt to move in hall. then i cycled to NTU frm my hse in yew tee to collect my room key in Hall2. Its such a wonderful feeling to feel ur cadence transform into pure motion man. N when ur gears, transmission, brakes r working perfectly, u feel esctatic when going at high speeds. After tough climbs up the many hills NTU offers, zooming downill is really damn song sia.

moved into hall after tt. cleaned up the place and it was time for the Hall 2 FOC camp lo. 7 days. 17-24 jul. shag sia. great experience. its beyond description. it can only be understood if u've experienced it urself. more siong than my army life lor. seriously. haha. mud n detergent is nothing. its the dried ketchup + butter + soy sauce + flour n every possible type of seasoning tts stuck on ur skin n hair tt remains in ur memory man. i'll nvr forget how it felt sia. oh man. to think my grp guys, myself included, asked for MORE. damn SIAO then.

I dunno y i always act as the "ah-gua" for the many camp or impromptu skits i've been in. i've seriously lost count sia. i mean i impersonated a v famous guy in Hall 2 la. then of course it went well and my grp KYOJIN got the prize for best OG nite performance la.

So after tt was INITIATION night walk organised by the JCRC. so they were calling me "ah-gua" all the way man. at 1 pt i almost lost it. i wanted to snap n just take off my blindfold and beat the guys who called me tt to a pulp sia. they might have been bigger, but with my rage then, i'd think i'd be a match for any1 lor. si peh hot then sia. i mean all of us have different definitions on everything. We have different perspectives on wat constitutes fun lor.

detergent n mud at 3 am is really damn cold lor. esp when u r zooming down a steep slope or when the wind blows at you. oh man. freaking cold sia. then after tt had to go for a walk in Nanyang Lake sia. was like how cold? its amazing no1 got seriously hurt throughout the many days of activities man. when we walked back to Blk1 of Hall 2 n took off our blindfolds, it was daybreak liao lor. blur. then when everything ended n we took our belongings n checked the time, it was 7am lor. 1st time got a camp sat full day all the way till sun 7am break camp sia. respect. once-in-a-lifetime lor. i mean its like we all damn "kam-gong" sia. Pay $ to suffer. like yo.

anyway i really respect all the senior's committment in putting the camp up sia. so much effort involved frm every1. then the dances were so zai lor. Power. They really trained n trained for the dances lor. n most of the activities were well thought out, n gave a very impressive feel. then the seniors all so nice. help the freshies out with everything, even using $ frm their own pocket when there was a need to do so. *clap clap*

well i didnt have a proper keyboard till last sun when i went hm after the camp tts y i didnt chat nor blog when i was online. Bought a nice-looking but cramped Logitech keyboard. Seems tt my precious wireless keyboard's electronics were quite fragile and it couldnt take a few humps. sad sia. tmrw is NTU student union's flag day. so its a school holiday. i'll have to try to get the keyboard fixed. I also have to fix up the HP PSC 1410 ALl-in-One printer i bought a few hours ago. damn dulan sia. keep on flashing check print catridge dun let me do shit. couldnt work at all. tmrw is repair day lor. sian. end up it wun really be a holiday. hai... till next time.

All Alone...

2005-07-13T00:34:00.000+08:00

wah kao. sipeh dulan sia. was blogging a while ago. then my com just hang. cause its unstable due to my OverCLock. pissed sia. wrote quite a bit. then gone. the recover post function didnt work too.

fed up sia. my LCD scar cant be repaired. my OEM TDK DVDRW161216DLB cant burn dvds. my knees so cui. everything coming apart. damn depressing.

i'll be all alone at hm till fri cause my mum is on holiday. haha. so sian. Wonder y no1 ever asks me y my hse only 2 ppl nia. hahaha...

shall stop here. at least have relief at CSS tmrw. haha. shall zzz soon...

2005-07-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

ok lar. thankfully the screen wasnt damaged, think its just the coating on the monitor. heng. dunno how much it'll cost me, but i'll get it fixed.

ok. so after setting up my com on tues, 050705 n having a game of WE8. it was time to pack my stuff for the CBE/BioE camp the next day. it was a rushed affair as usual. I always seemed to b rushing when i pack for camps/overseas trips. slept as early as possible cause had to be at JP at 0800.

wed 060705 - fri 080705: CBE/BioE camp. it went well. i thot it'll be some sian shit. but ended up not bad la. i couldnt shout a lot cause i had just recovered frm my horrible sore throat. couldnt even speak properly how to shout sia. sorry if i let any1 down. n to any of the POTA (my grp's name) ppl tt might be reading this, sorry again man. i danced like a fucking loser lor. i mean i'm a bad dancer to begin with la but i'm not tt lan one. anyway my mind was on the acting n the end split. then couldnt conc on learning the dance properly. sorry to all POTA ppl la.

i wun have given a damn if i didnt give the idea. cause every1 was pretty quiet during the 1st discussion then i just threw out a dumb idea. then somehow ended up being refined n implemented. haha. so i felt responsible for the little skit in a way lor. i was telling ppl to relaxing when the actual fact is tt i was the least relaxing lor. but bo bian lei. the ppl didnt seem to have the least idea of simple blocking (stage positioning) n stuff. i LL had to do it too. then ended up still didnt look v nice on stage cause i think its we didnt have time to rehearse the stuff before the perf. the 1st time we did everything, it was during the perf lor. not a good idea to get a good perf out. hai. so end up everything lousy oso my dai chirite? cause it was my loser idea. haha. even the final split i did at the end couldnt save wat could have been the most coherent n meaningful item of the nite. hahahaha... oh well. at least the ppl enjoyed it. :D

oh ya. n i could join for the water games cause i'm a real bad swimmer to begin with then somemore my knee was so bloody swollen by fri lor. jia lat sia. move my knee a bit only pain. loser sia. haha.

well the night games were fun la. the so-called initiation blind-fold night walk with the passing of chicken feet thru our bodies n the "rescue operation" of the 2nd night were excellent la. I mean i'm only alive during games lor. U tell me to cheer i'll just shuddup lor. I hate to shout. cause when i shout, its normally something unpleasant. hahaha... anyway for those wondering who was the guy singing 当你孤单你会想起谁, it was me la. hahahaha. it was a pretty good exp la. n i managed to make more frens oso. good.

but i think the camp could have been a tad more competitive lei. i mean we had so many games, supposedly pitting our skills against another OG's. but its like we didnt knoe the results of those games lor. on 1 hand, its good to have a friendly relaxing camp where ppl can just make frens n such, but on the other hand, if u wanna have games tt make 2 teams compete with each other on the same level, then there must be a competitive streak to it mah. n let ppl knoe the outcome or at least just wayang fake a winner out wat.

I was damn perplexed when some1 in my grp keep on telling ppl to take it easy, do at own pace then suddenly will like tell every1 to hurry up cause winning or reaching checkpoint liao. si peh contradictory sia. if want cheong then every1 cheong all the way la. slower ppl oso go all out at their pace then we can have some camaraderie wat. if want relaxing then we all go slow together, dun feel the race or watever shit together wat. i'm pissed cause i was chided by tt person for saying n i quote myself, "dun worry. slow nvm. just dun give up. u want jog slowly i run with u." then i tio kan cause tt person said this not a race. ok. fair enuff. then after a while the same person talked abt hurrying the slower members who were struggling a bit with running non-stop. like f lor. si peh dulan. u mean i encourage ppl to jog slowly wrong meh? i just said try ur best not to walk lor. PCB.

well actually by the 2nd nite my knee already v cui liao la. swollen till jia lat. still could run w/o pain la. amazing sia. cause i told myself not to let my grp down la. haha. think the 1st day the captain's ball did it for me la. shorty me jumping like a cock n landing poorly on the field. spoilt my knee sia. then i tio ram on my shoulder. tt one was pretty bad too. all these for just playing relaxing (yes i was) for something tts supposed to be just slightly competitive. so not worth it man. well at least i'm still back at hm in 1 piece la. i'm thankful for tt.

the amazing race was good too. but dunno wat was so amazing lei. the only thing was going to kranji war memorial. was a good exp. cause i've nvr been there. then another grp just went on the Net n searched for the pic which displayed the inscription on the plaque we were supposed to look for. i dunno man. were we the only grp who went to kranji? like yo. dumb rite? think it was my idea again. f me la. i suxxx sia. waste time. sorry again. haha. anyway, no1 knoes if there was any winner lor. dumb rite? this kind of thing might as well delcare as non-competitive in the 1st place rite? then made it seem as if it was some serious competition liddat. like yo sia. haha. oh well but tts me. cause logic dictates tt there must be some declaration of winner or loser in any competition. or it could have been no winner or loser. just declare to the participants mah. dun leave things in limbo. but tts me la. i'm sure other ppl dun think like me. hahaha.

so overall the camp was quite good la. most impt is made a few friends la. not bad. the mass dance was interesting too. but my knees so pussy i think i couldnt move well cause really pain lor. loser sia me. hahahaha... to think i was asking y i joined the camp when i was obviously had not fully recovered frm my illness. hehe. 1st thing i did upon reaching hm was to ice my knee lor. then when i slept i elevated it. obviously it wasnt enuff cause i could still feel something wrong during tdy's physio. yeah...

2005-07-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

Its been so damn long. dunno start frm where lei. Just start frm tdy lor...

had my last physio n doc session tdy. i really hope i'll never ever have to see any doc or physio for my knee again. well i can run n jump now. not bad la. I've been having a bit of swelling on my right knee cause of my CBE/BioE camp n tts y i couldnt run a lot just now. but well. i have to accept tt my stupid knee will have some unexplainable swelling n pain. though i might run n jump fine or even run fast with a big fat swelling knee, i dun feel much pain or instability. must be cause part of the meniscus is gone. budden again, i've been living with pain n swelling for so long liao. used to it. nothing fazes me. i'm just contented with watever i have now. dun think so much just knoe my limits n stay away frm football. yeah. n so i said my goodbyes n all the bests to the doc who has been seeing me since 2001 (can u believe it? like yo) n to the physio n the staff at the clinic.

anyway for the days b4 i had my fever on wed, i watched 3 movies on 3 consecutive days. mon = batman begins with gerald, tues = initial D with yiren n keeming, wed= war of the worlds with my army fren, rong shen. the 1st 2 were comic adaptations. i enjoyed batman cause it was well shot n it gave sufficient reasoning for the development of batman. it was visually dark n dark in its theme. clap clap. but well as with initial d, wat seems entertaining or possible on comic/manga or cartoon/anime, it might look unrealistic or over-the-top when u use real ppl to depict those scenes: like the ninja part of batman n the hilarious antics of "takumi's fren" (cant seem to remb his name. damn). n i didnt like initial d lor. i mean the racing scenes were wats expected of the show n some other scences were quite well shot la. but i cant tolerate if u get the facts wrong. for some1 who knoes the story pretty well, i simply couldnt stand it cause there were many wrong facts. i can tolerate it if the facts were not in their correct order but not wrong facts. like wtf. lousy show. then war of the worlds. it began quite zai-ly la. but as with many ppl, i wasnt too pleased with the ending lor. i mean i think its v possible n realistic, but a tad anti-climax for such a wonderful exciting show. n i didnt like the part the tom cruise's son suddenly appeared alive at the end. like yo. but well, maybe H.G. Wells really wrote the ending as such so speilberg had to follow it, for fear of alienating Wells' fans.

anyway i was about to be late for tue's initial d. i ran across the busy orchard road to PS n ran into a waist-high barricade on the other side of the road which i failed to notice. n i jumped over it without any thought. thankfully, i was alright, despite not jumping so high for a while with a bag on my shoulders. song sia. i mean i coulnt make myself look like an idiot rite? back-tracking to the traffic light there to get across tt small obstacle. well the things i'd do just to be punctual. have to see to believe it.

then last last wed (290605) in case u wondering where i was) went cine watch war of the worlds then met a lot of friends whom i havent seem for so long. well its true tt if u hang ard in orchard often enuff, u'll see all ur frens there at some point in time. tts a certainty. haha. then i came hm n was so f sick. high fever n all. super pain sore throat. gigantic inflammed tonsils. CMI sia me.

then i was sick till last mon (040705) when i got a bit betta. had to cancel my physio. so i did something i've put off for a long while. i cleaned up the innards of my com. cleaned up all the fan grills n stuff. i oso lapped my CPU heatsink. basically sandpapered it to get a smooth mirrored finish for better heat conduction. well i think i previously put too much thermal paste on the CPU so after some thermal cycles it hardened then when i was removing the heatsink, the CPU came off together with it, which its not supposed to. the cpu only supposed to come off after u release a latch.

Like f lor. i thot it was ok cause not the first time it happened. but it wasnt so simple this time. one of the small 478 gold pins were bent. then i tried to bend it back which was supposed 2 b pretty routine work. but i think cause i havent fully recovered, i ended up bending the surrounding pins oso. then disaster struck. I broke 1 of the pins. its like omg lor. i was so stunned. cause 1 broken pin = useless processor = $ wasted in replacing it. f dulan lor. its those kind of feeling like ur world comes crashing down man.

then the next day (tues, 050705) went to sim lim to get a new processor, Intel 478 Pentium 4 3.oE. 1Mb L2 cache. $320. LL lor. i wun settle for a lousier 2.8A or some sai. wun pay so much more for the 3.2E oso. oh well. thot of buying a complete new system with the new LGA Pentiums, budden i dun have the $ man. sad lor. so i dun think i'll be upgrading my com anytime soon. On 1 hand, i was happy to have gotten a faster n new procesor, but on the other hand i felt like a fucking idiot who had to waste so much $ cause of a small mistake. tt feeling sucks man.

So i came hm n fixed the stuff up. was a breeze. i thot of giving my system a good OVERCLOCK, so i put my precious BenQ 19" LCD on the floor to do some OC n diagnostics. so after i was satisfied, decided to put the Mobo back into the chassis. cause Everything stuff was on the floor including the motherboard tray tt aluminium thingyn the lcd monitor. so when i was moving the mobo tray back, the sharp edge scratched my beloved LCD screen. a loud screech. its a v visible 8 cm scratch sia. PCB. I was feeling so bloody sad sia. First i wasted so much cash on a new processor. then an ugly scar on my monitor. fucking dulan sia. double whammy. well i'm gonna get the ugly surface recoated at all costs man. still trying to get it done. hai....

2005-07-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

i've been so sick tt i havent showered, shampooed nor washed my face for wed, thurs, fri n sat le. tts a total of 4 full days! A new record for me... :p But well i really was so damn sick lor. i'm clean now. hehe.

the fever is ok now. but my sore throat is still v bad. its like i tell myself to sing one note, something horrendous comes out. i cant even speak at an audible volume man. hai... oh man...

Seems my fever is ok, but i wanna achieve 24 hrs no fever b4 i declare myself fever-free... haha... more slp....

So sick

2005-07-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

I dunno how 39.5 deg C sound like to any1. But i'm so damn sick now. freaking bad sore throat. high fever. dun even knoe wat i'm saying now. wat i'm sure is this is the first chorale prac i ever missed. damn. blur now. back to my bed...

Wat else can i do?

2005-06-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

I havent stepped out of my hse for the past 2days liao. yeah. just stayed at home. play games. read. study abit. slp a lot. n did housework.

Mopping the floor is a necessity. Its just tt vacumming n mopping all by urself sucks lor. i mean its not as if my hse is some big mansion n it takes a lot of effort for me to do it. its just the thought of doing it all alone. sucks man.

Then cooked for my mum. cause she was back frm work early n didnt wanna eat out. haha. simple fare as usual.

Wah cant imagine a housewife/househusband's life man. Whole day stay at hm, do housework, cook, then wait for spouse to come back. like how boring sia. Its even worse if there were no kids to look after or any1 else at home man. tts how i felt lor. alone for so long just waiting for another human being to come back. hahaha...

I can really stand solitude sia. DIdnt tok or sms or IM any1 for like so long sia. hahaha... guess loneliness is a good enough friend. ; P

Cockroach?

2005-06-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

Its amazing tt a small harmless cockroach can bring a human being to his/her knees. Like u knoe? A creature tt has less than a thousandth of a human's mass can scare some ppl so badly. I mean during the first night of the chalet, there was this little cockroach which ran frm the kitchen towards the living room. N some1 screamed n whined, put the legs up on the chair, shouting, " get it away! can some1 pls kill it?"

Ok. Must clarify first. I admit we all have our own fears. ALL of us do fear something. Fearing a cockroach is normal, just as a fear of heights is. But just because a cockroach is small, scuttles or flies and brownish in colour u mean it has no right to share this planet with humans meh? I mean for all u god believers out there, i'm sure god had/has his own reasons which mortals cannot fathom, for creating a cockroach rite? N for us non-believers, there must b some reason cockroaches evolved to suit their role in the ecological cycle rite? why must tt person think of killing it?

Maybe the dude knew he was going to b captured by me. so he "rammed" me. On my foot. In essence he ran up my foot la. haha. n he tried to escape. Well i went to the kitchen n took out one of the plastic bags. N just went to the living room with the plastic bag wrapped ard my hand n caught it, amid all the screaming. Tied the bag while i could feel the dude running around it. n i threw the bag out of the chalet. I'm not some hero but i just couldnt see it get squashed by some1's slipper or by some bundled up newspaper.

Yeah. b4 u think i'd killed the dude by suffocating it, think again. The cockroach will gnaw thru the thin polythene bag when it realises its the path to freedom. U must realise tt cockroaches r the most resilient creatures on this planet rite? There must be a reason y they've been around since the time of the dinosaurs rite??? : D

well even if its those little worms tt crawl into my room or into MCC last time, all i did was to scoop it up n put it back to its habitat. I dun like killing anything other than for sustenance. I limit my killing to virtual reality. but hey. mosquitoes r fair game.... ; p

F1 = Farcical In The 1st Degree

2005-06-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

I'm sure most F1 fans would knoe wat i'm talking abt. even if u were not a fan, u'd b amazed by wat happened in the USA Grand Prix in Indianapolis on Sunday. I'm a bit late to add on this piece of news but i had to get my hands on some wonderful HDTV footage frm ITV of Britain b4 knowing wat all the fuss was about and commenting.

Some simple background: 6 cars out of 20 raced tt day. The other 7 teams = 14 cars decided to pull out cause of safety concerns. They were using tyres supplied by Michelin. Yeah. its the brand with the big white guy made up of circles piled on top of one another. Cause the circuit in Indianapolis has this turn 13 which is a 9 degree bank (i.e. if u look frm the back, the right wheel is at a lower elevation compared to the left.) leading to one of the longest straights in F1. The Michelin tyres couldnt cope with the high temp generated on the left rear cause the tyres have to stick to the track as much as possible for stability. It would fail (possibly explode) thus smashing the vehicle into the wall at abt 320km/h. scary la...

Well i dun have to elaborate anymore on the technical issues or the possible solutions la. U have to watch the race. But i really feel down abt the sport in general. Many ppl in the US spent lotsa $ to travel to Indiana, buy the tickets, pay for the lodging n food. There were even others who flew in from latin america to watch the race. Not to mention the millions more who watched it on tv. N we got a 6 car "spectacle". Like yo. All because many bigwigs, couldnt agree on a reasonable solution. They could have negotiated on saturday night cause Michelin sent out the circular b4 tt to notify the FIA, F1 n the teams. Budden again, F1 is a sport made for TV. they had to play everything out blow-by-blow in the world's view on race day itself to make for more compelling viewing rite? haha...

Anyway some fucking mad fans threw beer cans, mineral water bottles to vent their frustrations at the Ferraris, who obviously led frm start to finish. I mean i empathise their sentiments, but not their actions. Cause if the objects had somehow hit the car, it might have caused one of the drivers to lose their lives. No sport is worth losing ur life or LIMB over. Yes n its coming frm me. haha. :D

I was genuinely concerned at the stewards who had to rush onto the track to grab the beer cans frm the track n dispose of them properly. U see, for all the marvellous braking power of a F1 car and the superhuman reactions of a F1 driver, there was the danger the driver was going so fast tt he could not stop in time n knock a steward over. the average speed of tt circuit is abt 200+ km/h. Even if he was knocked down at the lowest possible speed in the turn at abt 80km/h, it'd still have killed him.

So to the goons who threw the stuff on the track n caused another human being to risk his life in the course of his duty, pls go Fuck n Die. Would u have liked it if u were the 1 risking ur life for the nonsensical actions of another?

2005-06-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

My "little" subwoofer. :D

2005-06-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

My setup. Love it.

2005-06-22T10:49:00.000+08:00

Was in AH for physio tdy. walked frm queesntown MRT to AH cause i missed the shuttle bus. When crossing the road at the junction towards Queesnway shopping centre, i jaywalked. I mean we r so used to crossing the left filter lane for cars, cause we r all so used to it being a zebra crossing n pedestrians r given the 1st priority. Anyway i walked across cause i didnt see any cars anywhere near the crossing. Suddenly, this police car braked infront of me when i was 1 step away frm the other side of the road. Realising i was wrong, i apologised to the dude n got across quickly, almost jumping. There was this other dude behind me who took the lead frm me n started to cross the road, thinking tt since the police car had braked for me, it'd brake for me. Poor choice man. The driver in the police car gesticulated to him, motioning towards the green light for the vehicle. I could just read his lips. " u CB! cant u see its a green light for ME?? CCB. " funny la.

Then during physio, i seen my css choir junior. i surmise he just started NS. He was doing physio and his gf accompanied him. I mean the gf is not bad one lor. and in my memory this dude was like such a big irritant, a useless dick iMO. n hes got like a not bad babe? wah lau. wat is this man?? haha. oh well. i'm seriously the biggest loser dude around man. hai... n yeah. if hes a JC kia, which i'm not sure he is, n hes gal is going to uni this aug, i wanna tell him to treasure the remaining days of their relationship. I'm not cursing him or wat, i'm just speaking statistically. U wun believe how many couples esp the above-mentioned combination break up when the guy is in NS. u really have to be in NS to believe it lor. n i really hope they buck the trend. i dun require anymore examples. hahahaha.....

physio went well. The physio said i ran funny cause i impact the ground heavily when i run. i agree but i dunno how to change it lei. I think i've been running liddat for as long as i can remb, or its just tt i've been injured for so long tt i cant remember the correct "feeling" of running. Oh well. Then she put me on more coordination exercises la. I have v poor coordination too la. It wasnt a surprise to me la. haha. loser sia me. Other than tt i feel i did work out decently tdy. I stopped after i felt my knee was telling me something... haha. the knee speaks to me u knoe?? ; p

anyway was watching Channel U's Project Superstar la. the 6 guys one. not bad la. the 1st 2 n last dude cant sing man. i had to mute the volume to prevent myself frm spewing some nasty things abt them. the blind dude n the stiff fella who sang JJ's Jiang Nan sang well la. clap clap. But anyway, i think the blind dude really respect man. sang decently despite the obvious things ppl make about his disability. Budden i think hes just there to generate extra publicity for the show la. I mean realistically speaking, the show is looking for a star. he just doesnt fit tt category. i'm not saying blind ppl cant be a pop star or watever, its just tt there has to be a reason y Andrea Bocelli is the only blind guy who is a pop star rite? hmmm...

oh well i'm just a hum-ji armchair critic la. Whole day sit at home watch tv n criticise ppl's singing or acting. My mum always says, "you so li hai go on tv n perform la". Haha. Yeah tts true. But i ball-less la. Anyway its not tt i didnt wanna join this la. its just cause of some ridiculous turn of events man. seriously. guess its fate lor. yeah. so guess i shldnt be such an ass n say such bad things abt other ppl rite? hahahaha...

On a side note, seems tt ppl who are chorally trained seemed absolutely reluctant to join such singing competitions lei. I mean u see those few dudes just now, they have nice voices, reasonable range (much better than me) but they sound so vocal technique-inept. Well vocal technique is the same for every1, regardless of the songs you sing. Its just tt u make it work differently to suit the genre of song u r singing.

ok. back to installing games lo... :D

2005-06-21T23:33:00.000+08:00

Wow. Been quite a while since i blogged. Yeah.

Cause i formatted my com last thurs nite, b4 the VC chalet on fri. It was a bad decision. U might think tt after setting up a few coms, formatting so many HDDs n installing/reinstalling Win XP so many times, I'd have no probs doing it. Well an unexpected prob cropped up cause I formatted the drive which had Norton GoBack on. It made my reinstalled Win XP incapable of recognising my 80 Gb slave HDD. In essence it meant tt all my precious data, my downloads, songs, EVERYTHING was physically on the drive just tt XP doesnt acknowledge its existence. Eventually I solved the prob, without formatting tt drive after an ardous process. Phew. Long story la. Guess u never stop learning. haha.

Finally got my com back in a usable state yesterday.

Yeah. The VC chalet was fine. I mean getting so bloody wasted wasnt part of the agenda, but yeah i was. Had plenty of alcohol la. I wasnt drunk la. Cause i define drunk as puking from too much drink n the inabillity to walk in a straight line. SO yeah. i was wasted only la. Sorry if i did anything offensive or inappropriate to any1 when i was slightly incapitated la. I'm quite sure i didnt la. just in case. ; p

Other than tt, i had great fun helping out in the kitchen with the cooking. I didnt actually whip up any decent dishes on my own, i was there more as a kitchen hand. Learned a lot la. hehe...

Oh yes. N the WE8 on Xbox was very enjoyable too. Playing with humans is so much more fun than playing the 6stars A.I. Was so emotional. haha. I mean winning every1 who played 1vs1 with me n trashing a couple of them
(by some ridiculous scorelines btw) along the way wasnt the most impt thing. I feel tt when playing a video game, the most impt thing is to relax, dun be so uptight and simply enjoy urself.

U dun have to resort to hacking another player down by pressing the slide tackle button when u have no chance of getting the ball, in a game just to prevent a PROBABLE goal being scored mah. Theres no Prize Money or World Cup to be won. Though it was just a game, it demonstrated the lack of sportsmanship of some of my frens. boo. No respect for them la. Well if we were playing in reality for a tangible competitive title, like in the World Cup final or something, then i think its understandable la. bUt cmon lor, its just a game dudes.

Though the game is called WINNING eleven, but i think winning or losing is not the most impt thing in the game. U can say its easy for me to say cause i won all the way, budden every player starts out getting thrashed by more experienced players wat. No shame in losing big so long as u learnt something. Most impt thing is to enjoy urself. I mean its ok for me to lose to some1 better, so long as i gained new insights into the game or scored a spectacular goal la.

Btw, i scored 2 "kick-off" goals (those ridiculous long dist ones) described a while back using RONALDO (my fav player in WE) against a top quality keeper, Buffon. I jumped and screamed for joy when i scored the first of those 2. I havent felt so ecstatic on scoring a goal in WE8 for a long time liao. ; )

In fact, the ppl who witnessed it were the dudes who said after seeing the replay i sent them tt 1., its not such a big deal, 2., u shld do it on a top-class goalie b4 i'm convinced. Haha. I could see the stunned/shocked/amazed looks on their faces. Made my day. I knoe its a cheap thrill la. but i'm a cheapo wat. haha... they've got no choice but to believe me lor. No more doubters. yeah. Now tt i've demo-ed it live in front of them, its up to them to prove tt they can reproduce it. This is so tt they can prove i was simply exploiting an A.I. flaw which makes all tt i've done a fluke. If they can do tt, it would mean tt i was just plain lucky to discover it. If they cant do it, it means tt its cause of my abilities n training tt i did it, not under some lucky circumstances. throwing pie on ur doubters' face. Make them eat their words. Make them pay for not trusting ur completely honest self. Yeah. felt so good.

back to rebuliding my com lo... hai... : (

Its Been a While

2005-06-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

Its been almost a week since i blogged. Its not tt i've lost interest in it, but its just tt my life really so mundane lei. I have same amt of waking hours as every1 else but it ranges frm like 1130 to 0245. something liddat. then when u have a short day, u feel tt u havent done much then wanna zzz again liao. then i'm such a lethargic ass. i have a comfortable bed. i fall asleep easily. haha... sucks. lazing ard.

yeah. i got the BenQ FP937s+ 19" 8ms LCD monitor. its really damn song sia. everything looks so big. so clear. so defined. cause i put on my dvi. anyway if u r shopping for a lcd monitor during this GSS, dun believe wat the manufacturers say abt the panel response time. Cause tt num they quote is not the typical response time. surf the net for those independent hardware review sites and u'll see wat i mean. Mine is best perf for gaming la. n u shld look at ur needs too. if u dun play games just use monitor for office or photography work, then there are many cheap n v good panels out there now. Budden no LCD panel can match up to a CRT for video performance. it lies in the technology la. tech differences. LCD technology relies on aligning the crystals in a particular orientation using a potential difference to display images. Its been around for a long time, but not as long as CRT technology. It seems ppl have less difficulty controlling electrons. haha... yeah

oh man. i love my monitor.

got it yest in sim lim. n dun let those young promotor dicks cheat you. Sim Lim square theres a way to tok to the shop owners, just like there are diff methods of talking to the uncles at Queensway. yeah. must play the game. :D

b4 going there, i was in PS visitng a fren who was working in this shop, "Made With Love". Its this scrap booking establishment. very comprehensive stuff there. offer courses too. of course, the prerequisite is time n lotsa $. the things there not cheap la. but if u have the creativity n the determination to do something for ur loved one, its worth it. I mean the beautiful things tt u can adorn using the stuff there eg., ur photographs of some wonderful memories. they r all worth the time. n can personalise simple cards oso. it was an eye-opening experience for me la. nvr knew so much could be done.

But i must admit, i dun have the necessary artistic creativity la. Even if i attend the courses there, i'll just end up using those templates i'm taught. i cant create something out of nothing. I must actively seek out a problem, analyse it and come up with creative or different solutions for it. Its diff from being artistically inclined. Yeah tts me. Maybe tts y i wanna study engineering la.

Well i bought an acid n lignin free paper there. $1.25. quite a lot to spend on 1 piece of paper sia. i thot it'd be nice to fold origami with it. i didnt wanna fold or crease it in anyway, so kept it in the plastic sheath n carried the plastic bag. i was v excited after getting the monitor, couldnt wait to get hm. then i left the bag on beside a glass panel while i adjusted the LCD monitor's position. a 19" monitor, even though its a LCD, its still heavy n bulky with its packaging lor. In my earnest to get hm, i left the plastic bag there, along with my precious paper n the pricelists i had dilligently collected from the shops. Damn. tts how absent-minded i am. well it wun have happened if i wasnt alone rite? hai...

just finished listening to backstreet boy's never gone album. yes. its 2005 one. n i cant remb a single track i just listened to. yeah. HAhahaha

alright. back to my games on my si peh shiok 19" super responsive LCD monitor liao. ;-)

2005-06-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

Been pissed la. Not caused i was patronised by some assholes whom i shall not name. Its not the first time they did this to me anyway.

I'm pissed abt the responses i got frm some ppl abt the goal. (See the prev entry). Yes i agree there was luck involved. But I still had to knoe wat buttons to press n wat situation i could do it wat. I just want to prove tt everything can be possible (without the ridiculous gameplay u saw in earlier FIFA games) in WE8, which is wat makes it such a wonderful game. I dun have to prove anything to any1 or to defend myself. We can have an online game to see whos the champ. Wat made me so fucking angry was tt some dick (to think tt he requested to see it) actually said i cheated to get the replay out. say wat "just go to the option file n do it." i mean. go jerk off n fly a kite la. If u really think i cheated to do it, do it like how u think it can be "cheated out" n show me the replay then u can call me a cheat wat. I felt damn insulted man. ok. Enuff said. I shall not share anymore spectaculars. Hmph.

Had physio tdy. Ran. felt good. seems my posture improved lei. amazingly. Well of course i knoe there is a limit to wat level i can get back to. But if u can accept tt some goals/targets in life are just impossible to attain, u'll be contented with wat u currently have and wun feel so miserable at not being able to achieve those goals/targets.

Yeah. i mean i can live with the pain which will never go away. I accept tt fact. But so long as i dun feel the pain consciously in every sec of my life, it only surfaces when i want it to, i'm happy. After wat i've been through, i have low expectations of how well i can recover. I'm basically contented at every little bit of improvement i make. I'm a simple guy. yupz.

Anyway i oso climbed stairs just now cause i felt i didnt work out enuff at the physio session. One of the good things abt living in high-rise Singapore is tt u dun have to go far to get a decent workout. U can climb stairs! its an excellent cardio-vascular and lower limb extension workout. Best of all, u can do it at a comfortable pace and dun have to spend a lot of time to work out a good sweat. FOr me, i walked up 20 storeys = 12 + 8 + 8 X 18 = 164 steps, 2 at a time. Did it at a continuous pace without slowly down or getting into running pace. I used to run up stairs but dun do it now cause my knees arent in very good shape. Yet. ; ) The only resting period i had was waiting for the lift to come to the 20th storey n getting me down to the 1st storey, afterwhich, i attacked the stairs again. Typically, the rest period was abt 1min only. So it really is a good workout. Cmon. Stop reading this blog n try it for urself. Its shiok. hehe. : )

Got It Up

2005-06-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

DIdnt blog for the past few days not cause i had nothing to say, but i've been waiting for my upload at ourmedia.org to be up. Its for Winning Eleven or Pro Evolution Soccer gamers la. kickoff-->40m shot--> GOAL. If u dun play WE or PES, then dun bother clicking on that. If u have divx player on ur com n wish to view it as a .avi file frm ur HDD, click here.

Yah. Before u slam me for showing off (which is not my intention), hope u consider wat i went thru to score tt goal. I just wanted to prove tt nothing is impossible or adidas' impossible is nothing, whichever one you prefer. Its not a deficiency of the AI. Its just tt the excellent physics engine makes all these random things possible. I trained for tt shot. I have training replays of tt even. Haha. But its more of a luck thing. Cause most of the time the shot will be saved, hit the crossbar or post or just fly somewhere far away frm the goal. Just dun call me or the goal a fluke, rubbish goal, an impossibility or watever JUST BECAUSE YOU CANT DO IT. YEs Emma. I'm toking abt u! hahaha... ; )

Just came back frm clarence's (my VJ classmate) 21st bdae celebration. Was great toking cock with old frens n other VJ ppl. Yeah. The food at Serangoon Gardens Country Club was simple but it was delicious. yum. Had a good time. After tt clarence took us for a spin in his 1.6 nissan sunny manual. Its amazing how hard u punish ur car when u dun have to pay for it or its upkeep. Haha. Too bad i couldnt split myself into 2 n join william's (VJChoir. same batch) celebration in tampines. Hope every1 had hfun over there. Happy 21st guys!

My mum is still sick. Seems its some serious infection la. she has got no voice. Its worrisome. hmmm...

Could any Msian fren out there answer the following for me pls? Are fireworks free in JB? I mean they have fireworks displays so often. I can see it frm my flat la. So many things to celebrate ah? haha...

More WE8...

2005-06-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

Life really does suck when u have nothing to do. My routine now is wake up at 11am, play game surf. slp. till lunch at abt 1+. then play somemore. or read. then have tea. n slp till dinnertime. sometimes i'll have to cook for my mum. which is fun. otherwise we'd eat out. after dinner. play game n surf net somemore. slp between 2-3 am. with some mior variations here and there. but tts abt it. wat a life man.

anyway. tts y my blog title is "Can We Get On With It?". cause i want jul to be here. NoW. WHen term starts i'll finally be an undergrad. hahaha...

Well at least i did something meaningful today: I washed the fans of my flat. yeah. tts all the meaning there is to my life currently. The fan blades n their metal enclosures. haha. i'll explain qualitatively y its important to have clean fans when i'm really really free n have nothing to blog abt.

Till then. tata...

(dreamt of you again. like yo... hai. :'(

The Incredibles!!! ; )

2005-05-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

The Incredibles!!! ; )

Yes i really like The Incredibles a lot. Originally intended to give this set to some1 but nvm la. Took quite a lot of trouble to get it... Well dun always be so nice to others. Sometimes oso must b nice to urself, get something u like. Well i have The Incredibles PC game, the MacDonald's set (went through a lot of trouble to get them) n the limited edition US import dvd tts so ex... I'm really siao.

Have You Ever?

2005-05-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought of some1 so much tt u DREAMT of his/her parents? Well i did. I think i was in a supermarket dunno doing wat. Then suddenly this lady shouted frm behind me. I think she said "u like my daughter (she said her name out) one rite? how can u behave in this manner?" Or something to tt effect. I mean i was just shopping in the supermarket. Then i blur liao la. Haha. N i woke up. Stunned. Seriously not faking. must be i really think so much... hai...

Have you ever done something with such commitment that u spend so much time on it? I have. I started tuning my bike (again. hehe) at abt 2345 last nite. Then i told myself not to take so much time. so I played a westlife cd into my player as my time limit. wow. when i looked up at the clock, it was 0135 liao. N i wasnt done with it. N i hadnt showered then. Cant believe it rite? HAha. its true lor. Even i couldnt believe it. I took so long cause i wasnt good at tuning the brakes la. But now i can add bicycle repairman to the list of things i can repair. Next step is to take apart a bicycle n try to assemble it. then i'll be a bicycle mechanic. HAHAHA...

Anyway when i'm really committed about something, i'll go all out to achieve it. Even when i knoe its a futile attempt n its going to take me a lot of time, effort n heartache. Just like when i was doing my bike yest. I was playing ard with the brakes over n over again cause i feel it still wasnt riding smoothly. I stopped only when some retainer thing broke. hehe.

And yeah. I went to the bicycle shop just now. to get a new brake cable n the retainer thing. The repairguy was a kid. i think he's at most sec 1 lor. but he was good. so seasoned at repairing bikes. respect man. Never underestimate wat kids can do. Then i cycled to Lot 1 frm there n went to the library. as usual, i borrowed a book abt science. When i reached hm, guess wat i did? I was at my bike again. Tuning the brakes! Cause the kid was running a business and couldnt afford much time on it. I must say its really zai now. It can really run.

U must be thinking i'm mad to spend so much time n effort on something so cheap n useless. But i like wat. U buay kay gian ah? haha. no la. i mean however cheap n useless something is, its always good to make the best/most out of it. I not rich mah. No $ to waste. If spending some time can ensure i get to my destination in the shortest possible time n in the safest possible ride, i would. yeah. tts me. dumb. doing little things tt no1 bothers or appreciates. yeah.

2005-05-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

I cooked dinner for me n my mum tdy. it wasnt some simple instant stuff or pasta k? Cooked rice, stir-fried vegs, fried an omelette n campbell's instant soup. Mum says i cook v good rice despite rarely cooking. cause i always manage to get the water content right when cooking it in the steam cooker. this results in the rice being v soft, without feeling soggy at all. its harder than u imagine...
; ) think its some national family wk. haha. mum was happy i cooked for her. see i'm so proud of myself? haha. oh well if u r leading a life like mine, u have to be content with little things...

i'm good at doing household chores. repairing anything at hm. u name it, i can do it. well it wasnt too long ago tt some1 said i'd make a good husband. hehehe... ; p

I tuned the brakes on my new bike yest. its not because of the bad accident i had tt caused me to do it. I mean its a cheap mountain bike. Reason its cheap is cause of the cheap components i.e., rubbish gears, average frame AND slipshod assembly etc. Cant blame the guys oso. they have so many bikes to assemble, so little time n r not paid tt much. I knoe knoe how tt feels.

anyway, the brakes are V-Brakes. Their working principle is to be very close to the rims of the wheels so that u dun have to jam ur brakes real hard to get good braking performance. Apparently, mine was so close tt i felt i was pedaling v hard just to get up to speed. Initially I thot it was the gears but it wasnt. I did a simple experiment: with the brakes detached, i counted how many revolutions the wheel could make when i turned it forcefully. with the brakes attached without pressing the brakes, it couldnt even turn 1 round. My mum said if its possible to cycle in it, then shldnt play with the brakes, just have to ride it a bit more for them to b seasoned. shes got a v good point. cause frictional force is not directly proportional to brake pad wear. friction is a very strange force. its dependent on many factors. u realise no1 has a direct formula for friction where u can just plug in numbers into some parameters n get the frictional force? budden me being the freak with so much time on my hands, decided to do something to take up some time. haha...

I shldnt bore u with the details of how i tuned it, i spent a good 2 hrs to get them up to speed. cant imagine if i get a car next time, how much $, time n effort i'd spend to tune them. After tt went for a test run. Felt so good. Without the brakes restricting the wheels even when the brakes were not applied, i really could feel tt the effort i was putting in was translated to acceleration. It was a far cry frm the untuned bike. My braking style is to tap the brakes, slow down enuff to make the turn or overtake then jam it all the way when i wanna stop. Of course there is a downside to it. I wun have much braking when i wanna stop in the event of an emergency. N i'd have to tune the brakes quite often. Personally i think safety is the most impt thing for anything with wheels. No effort shld b spared on it. yeah.

Tmrw theres chorale again. No pt going so early. SIan... far far far... n theres class gathering at east coast park tmrw. haha...

I'm Crazy...

2005-05-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

Yes i'm mad. After injuring myself i went to buy a new bicycle. Yes. Tts wat i did, after patching up my palms with some handsaplast n ever-reliable transpore tape. I havent used a single hansaplast for abt 5 yrs b4 tdy. n i've used 9 tdy. wow... anyway, i really didnt feel physically exhausted after the cycling in the morning.

Well remb my bicycle was stolen a few days back? so it was rather inconvenient for me to get dinner by myself. Then my mum said she was going out n told me to settle my own dinner. I originally intended to get a bicycle today cause there was this bicycle promotion going on in IMM's Giant market. But i decided to postpone it, after thinking how badly scratched i was. Budden again i'd have to go out n get dinner. I thot might as well go out n get the bike lor. Fate rite?

Found the cheapest low-end bike i could get. Simple mountain bike. Steel frame. Rubbish taiwanese gears. No suspension. Cheap n lousy. Suits me. I'm a low end, low-expectation kind of guy. Actually its i no $ la. haha...

So i cycled hm frm IMM in jurong east back hm to Yew Tee. Cut through bukit batok n bukit gombak on my way to choa chu kang. tts cause i would have cycled the shortest possible stretch of bukit batok road. Tt long road is perfect for speeding in a motor vehicle. I mean the stretches in between the speed trap la. Didnt cycle a great distance. But i did it at a much faster pace than in the morning. I sweat a lot. I didnt sweat at all in the morning... no kidding. Well, cycling at night even on the pavements, with no safety lights or helmet isnt a wise thing to do, but i think i'm dumb la. Crazy u might add. But hey, singapore roads r so well-lit at night lor. N if i'm meant to make headlines on the New Paper tmrw, it would have been fated la. so i relaxing lor. ; )

Well i'm safe n sound at hm blogging la. No worries... hehe...

Good News n Bad News

2005-05-23T17:27:00.000+08:00

Went night cycling with some chorale guys last night. Cycled till this morn. till abt 6 am.

Good News: The ankle injury i talked about wasnt as bad as originally feared. My knees r ok.

Bad News: Every other part of my body isnt doing as well...

Well i only realised how bad the injuries were when i had my shower after i came back hm. I felt so high. No i didnt do wat u think i was doing.

Here's y:

The leg.

The arm.

The patched-up palms

The stunted little finger n the bloodied plasters...

The irritating pain.

All these uncleaned open wounds. Wow. When they came in contact with the shampoo n shower gel. the feeling. Its so high. Esp the palms. It was still oozing pus when i was hm. owwwwwwww...

Must b surprising how some1 who cycles almost everyday can get so badly hurt while cycling. I guess u can say my injuries resulted frm my own stupidity la. The bikes we rented in East Coast Park were damn good la. full suspension, v good gears n light frame. It was a far cry frm the CMI bike i always ride. So 5 mins after getting the bike i decided to test its speed. Wah. I could really run in tt bike sia. Then i went to test its brakes. Me, thinking i was still riding my customary rickety bike, jammed down both brakes hard. Cause on my rubbish bike, i'll only get a braking feel a while after i jam down both brakes hard. The bike catapulted 360 into the air .

Bad decision. I flew. Yes. I flew off my bike. Not exactly superman style. But almost as bad. I landed on the left side of my body. Tts y u see those bad abrasions on tt side. I didnt stop in tt position cos my body still had some momentum. I sommersaulted forward and ended up in a v good pose, with both arms outstretched forward n knees bent to balance myself. Macam some stunt liddat. Well i did tt cause of necessity n i tried not to make myself look so stupid... haha. i'm just trying to make my stupidity sound a bit less ridiculous. hahaha...

Anyway, the bike flipped on the ground for 2 more rounds. When i regained my composure, I could only feel a burning sensation on my palms n I got my bike n cycled away to save myself frm the incredulous eyes tt were transfixed on me. It was only after i got to somewhere safe with the guys when i inspected the wounds when i realised how bad it was. The pain.

Its not an understatement when i told the guys i've nvr rode such a good bike b4 in my life. Looking back, i think "the accident" (i'm trying to find a euphemism here la. haha...) could have been a lot worse la. I mean if some1 was cycling or blading behind me when i flew. Then "bang!". If i landed on my head or in some awkward position n injured my spine. Haha. Good thing i have experience in this sort of rubbish stunts (i mean to say freak accidents of my own doing.) n i didnt end up in hospital. Well but if i did, the trip would not have continued n skunk wouldnt have got hurt. oh well... fate la.

After patching my palms up, i got on with the cycling la. My mood was half gone liao. But i didnt want to b a spoilsport to the others. Furthermore, the bikes were paid for already. Just bear with the pain n get on lor.

As u can see above, i've got a pretty stunted little finger. I cant put my fingers together. Its tt bad. Maybe have some little fracture at the side. X-Ray Medic = X-Ray Eyes. I think shld be la. but i'll be fine. I wun die...

It was v fun la. Cycling frm East Coast > Nicoll Highway > Esplanade > Bras Basah > Orchard > Holland V > Geylang > ECP. We stopped along the way for some food. We were at brekos holland v when i realised how big the swelling on my right shin was. dun know how i got it. But for a "injury-seasoned" guy like me to b genuinely scared n surprised of any swelling on me, u'd knoe it was definitely BIG. Couldnt get a pic of it. Haha. Anyway, didnt have much mood to taste the food we sampled along the way. My mind was simply on completing this trip without sustaining any more injury.

Reached hm ard 8. Just woke up... DUn feel physically exhausted la. We didnt cycle tt far. Did it at a reasonably slow pace. Ya.

Oh yes, did i mention it? the bike was still in perfect cycling shape despite the crash i it sustained. Aluminium is amazing isnt it? ; )

My hands still oozing pus while i'm typing la. JIa lat... y no1 come n guan xin me? hai..... :'(

I'm So Screwed....

2005-05-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

I just realised i sprained my ankle. a bad bad sprain. hope its not a ligament tear. ARGH. shldnt scare myself....

it happened yest at gym. i was working out cause i was feeling damn lethargic for the past couple of days. i was on the knee press section of multi-station. It was a rather simple setup for knee press but i adapted it to do calf press. No big deal. I've always been doing tt. But i lost concentration for a second: i looked at the tv screen. bad bad. 200 lbs pushed my leg back n i sprained my left ankle. just think of spraining ur ankle normally i.e. standing upright with ur bodyweight on ur ankle, but rotate it 90 deg n yeah, u've got a horizontal sprain. which is wat i had. it must have been so painful it felt shocking rather than pain. die la. 200 lbs is abt 100kg lor. though its horizontally, but i think its just as bad.......... sucks man......

when i'm around, even the most trivial of objects can turn into something life-threatening or damaging. To myself of course... hai..................

Wore an ankle guard for most of tdy. when i took it off n felt lost tt feeling of "security", tts when i realised how loose tt ankle is compared to the normal one. means its damaged... damn.... so screwedddddd...

Watched "The COrporation" over lunch tdy. It screened on CNA a few months ago n i missed it. Well i managed to get hold of it. Somehow. Haha. N it was such an informative show la. so many sources about the all-pervasiveness of large corporations nowadays. It also talked about the origins, evolution n the muti-faceted problems corporations cause.... Its really well-researched la. It is really good material for GP. HAha. but oh well GP is no longer my prob. But would any1 wanna borrow it? I mean everything must care n share rite? budden again, i have so few blog visits, so dun think any1 will la. hahaha....

Its so good i'm even considering buying the book. Saw it a while back. Didnt knoe it was the subject amtter of such a wonderful film. Well for starters, the corporation started with 2 historical events.
1. The 14th Amendment after the American Civil War was orignally enacted to protect the rights of the newly-freed slaves. but the supremely smart corporate lawyers used it as their legal basis to incorporate their clients' companies. Corporations before tt were originally public entities give market capitalisation by the individual states n had strict rules on how they were run. After "incorporating" themselves, the companies had the rights of a "legal person" so to speak. For instance, they could own properties. Yeah.
2. The Industrial Revolution. It began with this dude (cant recall his name. damn) who came up with a steam pump tt could pump water out of coal mines faster so tt the coal miners could mine more coal per manhour. Then other technological innovations extended tt to more textiles, more iron, more everything per manhour.

Yup. all these for the relentless pursuit of greater profit. GREED. yeah. watch it n u'll understand wat i mean la. i highly recommend the show to any1 who likes to have more knowledge on these issues. any takers?

Take Me To Your Heart

2005-05-18T01:55:00.000+08:00

I really love this song by MLTR cause it has Jascha Richter's melancholic singing n describes how i feel la... haha. My fren doesnt like it cause he says the lyrics r cheesy n its sung to the tune of Jacky Cheung's 吻别. seriously.

Take Me To Your Heart

Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat

So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl

(Chorus)
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true

They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart

Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend

Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
(Chorus)

I'm a sucker for cheesy lyrics la. I think i'm just too blur to think to think properly now la. haha. zzz....

Appreciation...

2005-05-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

Was at Esplanade early to collect passes on behalf of VC. Went early with the intention of listening to VJChoir one. cause we wun have a chance to join the audience n hear them after our segment. But i ended up slotting the passes into the plastic covers n running ard leading ppl to the dressing rooms n handing them their passes. Well at least da boss said thanks n appreciated it. hehe... : )

I came in early for 1 small part of O Ina. It wasnt obvious. N i shuddup immediately upon knowing i was early. N i anticipated the claps for Kerraban. Raised my hands abit b4 the rest of the choir. I suck lor. Make such mistakes during performance. Loser la. I treat my personal errors very seriously one. sad la. But overall i think our segment was fine la. didnt let ourselves down.

Talking about appreciation, VC wasnt thanked at the end when the credits were read out. I guessed it must have been a genuine mistake la. Think sometimes VC is taken for granted la. I mean i've not been in VC for a long time but i guess tts how i feel lor. Betta not use "we" or i'll get banged right left and centre by every1 else. shldnt elaborate too much oso, lest i turn this into an expletive-filled post. But well i relaxing la. Say abit liao then dun care liao. Cant say so for others la.

Oh well, i'm used to being unappreciated anyway. its really a familiar feeling la. i mean if u really wanna help, do a favour or something special for some1, u wun ask for anything in return wat. i didnt really take it to heart. Well tts me la. But no1 enjoys being unappreciated. haha. ; )

I just da a pint of 8.5% Hoegaarden Forbidden Fruit in 1 shot. Song. Hai... If not how to live with myself??? :'(

2005-05-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

Tdy was a doctor's day. Went to AH get my bridge, seen my doc n had physio. Then went over to Jurong West in the evening for dinner n to see the acupuncturist.

Really like my teeth now. Chose the correct tone n colour for the bridge with my dentist. She oso spent a lot of time getting me a perfect fit la. appreciate it. :) i really dun remb the prev dentist in the private clinic spending so much effort to do the fitting. i did it without any local anaesthetic. Wow. I never knew ur teeth could feel so much pain. Argh...

Went for lunch at the AH cafeteria. Lunch hour so very crowded. I was alone n didnt have any place to seat. So i shared a table with these 2 ah peh-looking gentlemen. Then one of the docs frm the sports clinic came over. Then i thot, hey if such a senior employee at a hospital must be some big doc rite? then i went to glance at their name tags. Senior consultant, Anaesthesia n Senior Consultant, Orthopaedic Surgery. balls drop la. haha.

Then went for doc's appt. Nothing much la. The specialist went for some emergency surgery then he told a MO to take over. pretty routine checkup la. My knees will always have some sort of prob. Nothing any1 can do abt it. Physio was ok oso. Did a lot of control drills, a lot less strengthening liao. Shagged out la. she said my quads were pretty strong liao. She seems a bit protective lei. Dun wanna let me run. Oh well, shes the medical professional. I'm not. So must respect her opinion lor.

Shopped at queensway for some socks n a new waist pouch la. To replace my 5yr old dirty beige one.

After tt took 198 to JW. Had a good slp on board. Met my mum for dinner. Acupuncture n chinese medicine does help a lot for many conditions. I do feel a lot betta after the session.

Took a cab hm with my mum back hm. SOV tmrw... ; )

Next Time?

2005-05-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

When u say next time, it means u expect or hope for another instance of the event rite? haha. oh well tts just my view. but pls wake up u ass. hahahaha... ; )

I just realised y my right knee feels so creaky every now n then liao. its been abt 9 mths since op wat. cant be feeling so bad. its stable la. but creaky. its not the surgeon's, therapist's or my fault. I havent done anything stupid to my knee (other than splits. but hey splits are more muscular than anything) for a long time. was going down the escalator at JP when i suddenly remembered the doc said i had an ulcer at the femoral end or something when he opened up my knee. in simple terms, i have arthritis. yeah tts rite. so though i'm basically stable now n have strong muscles, i still have arthritis. its going to be with me for as long as i live. tt kind of feeling sucks big time man.

I really must look for things tt will make me happy man. oh well... hai........

I'm getting my bridge tmrw le. Yay! Going for physio n doc appt too. Tmrw is hospital day... haha.

2005-05-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

I think i saw my bicycle parked at the MRT station. the screws all had the same degree of rust as my bike. N tt model isnt sold in the local neighbouring shops. i bought the bike at suntec's carrefour. I'm sure the dude wasnt as stupid as i was rite? So to see tt bike again is just too much of a coincidence. well if tts really my bike, i dunno how he can live with his conscience lor. Stealing is morally wrong. sucker. SOB. asshole. PB. :'(

ok la. cant b 100% sure so dun anyhow insult others.

oh i just had a glass of milk, some dark chocolate giant Pocky-like snacks, half a large packet of Twisties n A LOT of biscuits. Well ppl only binge when they r very hungry, sad, just feel like it or angry. Which one describes me now? all of the above? take ur pick... haha... ; )

shall return to my games now. ta.

2005-05-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

I'm still thinking abt my bicycle. I have this thought tt it'll suddenly reappear at the MRT station. Hai... Though its an inanimate object but i have some good memories of it. Had many close shaves with it. Raced down CCK Dr on the way up the slope to my hm. Gives me a big thrill when i overtake cars going upslope. Of course i wun forget the times when i cycled to sungei buloh nature reserve with many container trailers alongside me. N when i cycled to my fren's hse in taman jurong at night with no safety equipment n to safti for my dental appt the following morning with only a few hrs of slp. Had to contend with container trailers too. Went on to Jurong Pt n proceeded to NTU to meet my fren. Finally cycled hm frm NTU. Hai. All these on tt rickety, cheapskate CMI bike of mine. Sad la... : (

Went for a redemption counter interview yesterday. At causeway pt. The job is ok. Its near my hse. The pay is standard temp pay. But i told them straight tt i couldnt work on saturdays. In the retail industry, saying u cant work on wkends is equivalent to telling them u dun want the job. Well its not tt i didnt want it, but i figured there was no way i could rush down frm woodlands to siglap within a reasonable time frame. Committed to chorale first. Furthermore, its not as if i desperately need the $ to support myself. Well at least i can play games, study at n sleep for the remainder of my holidays... hehe...

Was reading Tuesdays With Morrie. Came across this passage in "The Seventh Tuesday". It was about y ppl always wished they were young again. We constantly hark on the "good old days" (well at least i do) cause we have unfufilled lives. If we have found meaning to our lives, we would always be looking forward to the future n nt to the past. Thats so true. I'm such a loser to have required a book to tell me tt simple fact of life... hai. Oh well i hope i'll find meaning in my life. Soon. hehe. ; P

2005-05-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

It drizzled the entire afternoon tdy. well i woke up at 10am n slept at 1115am. I wanted to take a nap but ended up slping till 1335. i'm such a lazy guy sia. Sleeping is 1 of my fav activities. Bo bian lei. nothing to do wat. Played Chaos Theory n Brothers in Arms. haha. Song. Been a while since i played for such a long stretch.

Dun think i'll have another phase in life where i can be so carefree, slp n do when i want, when i want it. I'm sure i dun want another long MC in my life ever again.

Yest damn angry la. Some SOB "stun" my bicycle. Ok maybe the lock was old, but tts no reason to steal mine rite? i hope the dude meets with an... Hmmm. My mum says i shldnt be mean. alright. sucks. : (

"Maybe its god's will rite?" haha. Pardon me. i was on my way back frm watching kingdom of heaven when i realised the bike was gone. tt line appeared many times la.

Anyway, kingdom of heaven is only a so-so show la. Orlando Bloom aint a big-time actor la. Didnt feel inspired by his battle speaches. Dun think he has the stature to be a leading man la. haha. The battle sequences werent spectacular enuff. Towards the end, the dialogues seem a bit "hollywoodised" la. wasnt consistent with the rest of the show.

But the part which i felt was most unrealistic was tt Orlando Bloom's character seemed such a genius at city defence. He was supposedly a blacksmith all his life till his dad took him with him. Rapid advancement at swordfighting is believable la. Cause defending n killing others (in the 12th century) with your weapon of choice was instinctive n he might really b so talented. What i'm very sure is tt planning a city's defence isnt an intuitive thing. It requires u to be trained in it. Try playing Rome: Total War or RoTK IX (or X) n you'll knoe wat i mean. Furthermore, the show said he was in Jerusalem for a few days only. like yo rite? N he clobbered his enemies into giving him a peace deal. Well we cant expect Hollywood to be 100% historically accurate rite? Budden again, maybe tt character really existed n he was indeed so intelligent. Cause god's will again rite? haha... As usual, hollywood tries its best not to take sides. The director was sensible enuff thus the show didnt potray the christians or muslims as the bad people. Fair enuff. ; p

Anyway the "baddie" looked like the world's most famous terrorist. tall n lean. haha...

Watched the lame ch8 show just now. Car-jacking seems so easy rite? I'm v v sure u dun lock ur doors when u r driving. The bad guys just drove in front of their target's car, blocking its path. Then the chauffeur stupidly stopped there for dem to jack. He shld have just drove away mah. The road was so wide without any cars in the adjacent lane. I'm sure a Merc E200 cant win a VAN in a head-to-head man. Then they just opened the car door n got on with their objective. YO.

Wasnt the first time i seen an unrealistic car sequence frm mediacorp. The other 3 involved brake failure tt caused the car's occupants to suffer severe injuries. Well any1 who has half a brain wun knoe brake failure isnt the end of the world. Even if u were running at 100+ kmph, just let go the accelerator, put on hazard lights (show others u have a serious prob), keep as straight a course as possible, then pull the handbrake as hard as u can. U'll come to a stop. Ur drivetrain n engine will sustain some damage, but u wun die like how the shows depict la. R the directors/producers so artsy tt they have no idea of how a car works? Or is their creativity so limited tt they cant think of a betta way to make people lose their memories?? hahaha...

I like.

2005-05-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

Tdy is mother's day la. Bought a small bouquet of roses for my mum. Haha. nice la. i like nice flowers. ; p

Nice?

Bought the flowers with my tuition $ la. Well i always thot it was $20/hr. But end up become $15 lei. Must have been some miscommunication. Nvr mind la. Treat it as helping my tutee lor. : D Well i'm a gian peng person la. But i'm not so kay gao tt i'll charge for the extra 15 mins i'm there lor. hahaha...

I played GameBoy Advance emulator's sonic pinball party la in the afternoon. U wun believe how childish/pussy-ish i can be. Have to see it to believe it. But it was fun la. a great time killer.

Sonic Pinball Party. ; )

So fun...

My memory v lousy la. Cheated to get the screenshot. *oops oops*

After tt i took a good 3 hr nap. song la. The game was v tiring. hehe. Well Sunday is basically a sleeping day for me. I can slp the entire day without doing anything other than eat n play games. i'd wake up at 11 if i didnt have to go tutor. i'm lazy. i love to sleep. U only get nice dreams when u sleep long enuff... : )

Saturday had chorale la. Reached Siglap just b4 4 la. Too late then no smile lor. sad sad. : ( Cause y? i left my wallet at hm n i only realised tt when i was at the MRT station. So had to cycle back hm. how dumb can u get sia? hai...

Oh yes. Friday was my last day of work at the siong place. Didnt extend cause my knees really CMI la. sian. for tt 2 wks of work, average 4 hrs per day got paid quite decently la. cant complain. anyway, shld delete numbers frm my phonebook liao. haha. tts me.

have physio tmrw... I can run well now. yay! happy la. :D

Nice?

2005-05-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

Check Out My Teeth. Cute Rite?

Its my teeth. Serious. It aint a textbk picture. Its me. My dentist took the pic 4 me. My teeth v jia lat one la. Many probs. She said i have clean n well-aligned teeth. N i dun have wisdom teeth prob la. Seems my jaw expands to accomodate the last 4 molars. So i guess its quite rare tt some1 like me has such an assortment of dental probs. Hai. sad la.

Anyway the prob u see above arose frm a freak accident. AGAIN. Its like a recurring theme of my life lor. If u knoe how i get all my injuries n dental probs, u'll think i'm either a bloody stupid fool or just extraordinarily suay. Sucks. Well i'm making a bridge for tt particular sequence of teeth la. Shan't bore u with the details, otherwise it'll take up this entire column la.

Well tts y i tell myself if i were to find a wife, its best if i find a healthcare professional la. Doctor, dentist, nurse. Whichever oso can. So can take care of poor me. Selfish rite me? Haha. Yes i am. I'll make a good specimen patient la. Will give relevant feedback one. : D

But then again, i think it'd b damn bad for me to make my wife worried abt me over all my injuries la. So i debunked the idea. hahaha...

Oh yes, VJChoir got GOLD with HONOURS just now. They zai la. Congrats. : )

Thanks Liverpool!!!

Hope Liverpool wins the Champions League. The Liverpool fans in Anfield were great!

All right. enuff for tdy. tata...

2005-05-02T23:01:00.001+08:00

Cute Dino!!!

2005-05-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

Love my bed... ;)

I wonder...

2005-05-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

I worked yest. Haha. SUNDAY n labour day sia. Sucks. Well but I "worked" frm 0830 – 1700. 2x wage. But we finished the job in 2hrs. So it worked out to $44/hr. Trying to make myself feel betta despite working yest. I'd extend it if my knees could make it. Its a result of some creative accounting la. We "spread" the load over the 3days. Tts y we could work for the 3days n get the $$$... Anyway we managed to meet the target, so no harm done to any1.

Had chorale on sat. Every week I wonder, "y am I so dumb? Y do I make such a long trip to siglap south cc". Think I answered tt in my first ever entry. Well think I have something to add to tt. It must be the biggest regret of my life to have gone to VJ lor. I wun classify it as a mistake, but it definitely is a regret. I mean if hadn’t gone there n dragged my frens in (which I’m guilty of), none of these would have happened. I would be a diff person. Hai… oh well but its too late to say anything abt it. Its over. Sucks…

Budden at least these few weeks I can have a "once-per-wk" smile la. Haha. Not tt it lasts v long, but I think somehow it makes me happy. Maybe tt explains y I seem to b able to remb notes n sing betta these few wks. HAHAHA… ; D I dun think I have many "once-per-wk" smiles left liao. Haiiiiiiiii... *sob sob*

Most of the ppl on exam break came back for prac. Then I saw some1 whom I haven’t seen in quite a while. I always wonder y some1 who looks so angelic can be so hurting. Everytime I look up n see tt look, there will be this unexplainable anguish. The kind of hurt I feel is like oh my… ARGH.

Would have saved myself frm this had I not chose VJ. Budden again, theres no guarantee I wun get a heartbreak else where. Hai… But 1 thing I’d be sure is I’d definitely have gotten betta results for my A-Levels… boo…

Oh well I think I piss off a lot of ppl la. Well but I'm only honest n caring towards my frens. For eg., I dun give 2 hoots abt my current colleagues' lives. But I think too much concern becomes hounding to the other party la. Haha. But tts only cause I care. N y shld I affect any1 else if others dun value wat I say? Haha. Its rubbish rite? Just consoling myself. Crazy ass me…

2005-04-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

Reached hm at 1435 after work. Shiok. We all whack n do quickly. Actually this job is ok. Work 4 hrs n get paid full day’s wages. Works out to $11/hr la. I’d gladly continue in this job if only my knees can make it. As it stands now, they r not super zai. Not extending after my contract ends. Will tell agency not to gimme any more “tough jobs”. Yeah I knoe I’m a pussy. Haha. But too bad. I really am. Cant change the fact la. *sob sob*

If only some1 frm some corner in this world can ask abt me like how I ask abt tt person’s health. I’d definitely feel betta la. But Weixian, pls wake up lei. Haha…. :D

Settled into an army-like rhythm during work liao. I sleep during my rest time. I dun tok to my colleagues. I dun bother to get to knoe them betta. Rarely join them for lunch. Haha. I’m just there to work. Not to get angry abt their comments abt my work or their personal jibes. Dun wanna get into any argument. Just shuddup n relaxing. Finish work, go hm. But tts my philosophy for NS, temp or part-time job. U can hate me, think I’m aloof n complain abt my work attitude or whatever but u cant complain abt my work performance. Just like in army where I’m known to be a sleeper, but no1 could fault me on my work. Hahaha.

Had lunch with colleagues yest. I asked if they wanted Macs. Then I thot, to fill my stomach up with Macs, I’d have to finish up abt 15 boxes la. Tts abt 1/3 of the day. Work so hard just to blow up the $ on some junk food? N shorten my lifespan in the process? Not v smart rite? Gives me a new perspective abt how I spend my $.

It rained early in the morn at my workplace. There was a freaking thunderstorm at my hm just now. Scary la. It didn’t rain heavily but there was thunder n lightning non-stop. In the distance I could see lightning flashes all around me. It was cool for a while. Now its hot n humid again. Sian la…

Treated my mum to dinner at fiesta in Jurong Point just now. Coz I just got my relief teacher’s pay. Had lotsa sushi. Yumyum… still v full… :D

New Skin...

2005-04-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

Havent blogged in a while. Well been damn tired la. Working in tt shit hole of a place is v v tiring. First thing I think abt upon reaching hm is to slp. Nothing else. The only consolation abt this job is dat we can leave after finishing the day’s quota which means I can reach hm at abt 4+ la. So long as the quota is met, it’d mean tt we are paid a full day’s wages. Haha.

I’ve gotten use to my colleague la. Was damn pissed initially with this dude whos abit slow. Hes those kind of super garang but dumb dude tt u see in army. Wants to do things with seh (style) n quickly but does it wrongly. He still asks qns like, “unscrew the screw is rotate left or right huh?” after 4 days of repeating tt same motion lor whenever he goes to the opposite side. Like yo. Y am I wasting column space on him sia? *pui*

But nvm. Y shld I b so demanding on others? Just because I demand a lot frm myself? Dun think tts a good reason la. I used to think it was… Well, if I constantly expect so much frm others n myself, I’m gonna b miserable n disappointed most of the time. Relaxing la. :D

Took the whole evening to get my blog skin up with its customizations. Things like the tagboard colours, sizes of the headings (the original was super small) n the comments n time link at the end of each post (it took me quite a while). So pls gimme ur comments n I’ll see wat I can do. Thanks. Learning HTML n seeing it work was a fun journey for me... hehe.

Anyway just realized my tutee blogs abt me la. N she reads my blog. Haha. Last Sunday was the 2^nd time I met her la. Haha. Must say shes quite proficient la. Just needs to work harder n she’ll b fine. ;D

Need to go back to my origami now. Hehe. ;p

Blurred Out...

2005-04-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

Never been so tired b4. Not even in BMT. Seriously. Work really is tough. 1^st day doing this “rework” work. Haha… It involves checking this particular brand of server to see if the screws r of the correct size. Sounds lame rite? But the servers r all so so damn heavy n have to move them all around. Pack dem. Strenuous on the back n arms la. Shag-ged la. Hot. Sweat like mad. Work non-stop. Blur sia. The only consolation is tt finish the quota for the day then can go hm liao.

Slogging so hard for a pittance really makes me think. Now I know the meaning of hard-earned $. $ doesn’t come easy la. Must treasure wat I have. I think tts the only positive I can take out of this experience. N there is no skill 2b learnt frm simple repetitive motions that I can apply to my daily life. I’ll just treat it as I’m being paid to exercise n a daily test to see if my knee still holds up.

It feels like NS all over again la. 100% Male environment. Temp-ing with another 2 ORD-ed guys n 1 awaiting enlistment. It sets me wondering: Y issit tt all my other frens can get some cushy office air-conditioned job with a better wage than me, while I have to work so hard for this kind of pay? Haha. Well as my mum used to say, “the world IS fair”. I served my NS in a relaxing office environment while my frens all go cheong suah (literally run up the mountain). Hmmm… So tts y I need to “pay my dues” now rite? Haha… oh well. Nothing I can do abt it. No $ = No choice. U’ll take up any job tt comes along.

Tmrw will b worse. Will b reworking a smaller server with more packaging. More packaging = more work. N I’ll have to rush off to chorale in SIGLAP all sweaty n dirty. Boo boo. I stupid wat. Wanna join. Dumb dumb me. : (

Its only 10 plus now I feel so tired. Really first time lor. Will slp soon. Ta…

2005-04-21T01:42:00.000+08:00

Finally back online lo. Been trying to get my new com back to a usable state. Just got it done. If any1 out there wants to setup a new com can contact me. I’ll help. Esp if u need to reformat 1 of ur HDs, have more than 1 HDD n reinstall XP. Cause after reinstalling, XP wun recognize whatever precious info u have on ur old slave HDD. U need to do some little tricks. Haha…

Watched a dvd over lunch today: “What Women Want” starring Mel Gibson. Funny romantic comedy la. If only I could read women’s minds. HAHA… But well such abilities only exist in fiction la.

So girls out there, if u dun tell guys wat u think, they’ll never know. Well at least I’m willing to listen. ;D

Anyway, picked up 3 interesting things from the conversations Mel Gibson’s character had with the women in his life:

1. To his daughter Alex, he said he didn’t want her to be pressured into a relationship just bcos ur bf/admirer is older than her. Her bf was 3yrs older)

Wah. U mean if a ger is wooed by an older guy means there will be pressure to accept him just cause of the age ah? Really meh? But I dun think its true. Hahaha… : (

2. In his dialogue with love interest Darcy (Helen Hunt), she said he was not such a bad guy after all. N he said shes not who she really is

Yeah. Sometimes we are not really perceived as our real selves. We must all make the effort to get to knoe our frens betta la. Only after you know the person for some time (cos time can tell many things) should u even think of judging him/her.

3. With his “guinea pig” Lola, he said tt it was hard for any1 to go out with some1 new cause of the fear of getting hurt again. Then she said slow is good. Haha…

Tts very true. Sometimes we are apprehensive cause we r unsure if the other party will turn out 2b another jerk/bitch who hurts us again. Well but if u nvr try, u wun knoe if wat u get is hurt or happiness. But then again, if u dun try, u’ll eliminate the possibility of getting hurt. So its more of which choice is the better gamble. Or can just take things slow n go with the flow. However, as always communication is paramount. Hahaha…

Shall end here. If not ppl say my blog entries too long cant b bothered to read. My fault ah? Haha… I have a lot to say abt tt but hey, if I do, then this post will be even longer rite? *zips mouth*

Need to slp la. :D

Dumb Dumb Me.

2005-04-17T01:10:00.000+08:00

I stupid sia. I'd bring a pen or pencil to Chorale prac most of the time. Its only when u or the ppl ard u need it tt u realised u'd left it at hm. Loser...

Anyway didnt get my once-per-week smile la. sian. must b my previous entry then i "reverse voodoo-ed" myself. :( nvm la. but 1wk see once frm far for a few secs i oso contented la. Hahaha.

Hope this is not another case of "落花有意, 流水无情" la. I mean i'm used to it. *sob sob*. But i've had enuff of it liao lor. hahaha... oh well. as i used to say, "relaxing la." no worries.

Alright. tmrw meeting my tuition kid for first time la. n its quite early in the morn. so i shld slp like now. Argh... zzz...

So Sian...

2005-04-16T13:44:00.000+08:00

Was supposed to work tdy. Due to some misunderstanding between the agency n the company, I had to start working on Mon instead. The company’s shuttle bus had left by the time I was there. Not any1’s fault, just a misunderstanding. Woke up early n made a wasted trip la. Sucks.
:(

Well but at least tt means I can go for prac at Siglap on time. N get my “once-per-wk” smile. Its lasts for like less than 1 sec lor. But I’m content. Hehe. ;p

If I can afford the time these few days, I’ll learn some proper HTML, add a tagboard n links la. Haha. I knoe I’m slow… ;p

Bought a couple of dvds last nite. One of it was the 2 disc The Incredibles Collector’s dvd. I bought the us import version la. Much more ex than the Singapore Collector’s version. Sucks man. Bo bian la. Who tell me to siao The Incredibles? Haha. If u r as fanatical abt it as I am, nothing but the US version would suffice. From my understanding, there are a lot more bonus features in it than the SG Collector’s version. It’s a dvd a fan would hope for. Well it also has a “Jack-Jack Attack” special. It details wat happened when the maid was baby-sitting him. :D

Didn’t have time to watch it last nite. I was just trying to play the Original DVDs I bought, in case there were any errors in them. I had a bad experience with AN ORIGINAL DVD b4: By the time I tried to play it, the 7days 1-1 exchange period was over. N it was ex lor… SUCKS.

Anyway its running late now, must run off for lunch n chorale now. Shall blog more abt the dvd when I have the time…

Thinking...

2005-04-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

Been thinking a lot since Mon. Mon was the dramatic day. N i accidentally sent 2 blank msgs this fren of mine. Well i did explain n apologise.

Since tt day, this song has been on my mind... hmmm....

情非得已庾澄庆

难以忘记初次见你　一双迷人的眼睛
在我脑海里　你的身影　挥散不去
握你的双手感觉你的温柔
真的有点透不过气　你的天真　我想珍惜
看到你受委屈　我会伤心

只怕我自己会爱上你　不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你　爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你　也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己　爱上你是我情非得已
爱上你是我情非得已

什么原因　我竟然又会遇见你
我真的真的不愿意　就这样陷入爱的陷阱

Think tt sums up my feelings. ;)

Anyway to any1 who felt seriously offended by my previous post, esp the last part, sorry. didnt mean to dig up old things to bitch abt. Consider this: I talked abt the "truth". There are varying degrees of truth. Even then the perception of "truth" lies with individual. So if u disagree or disapprove with my version of events, its ur prerogative. The most impt thing is to be able to live with ur conscience. If u can feel i've done ur best n yet let others down, maybe ur best was not good enuff. Or maybe u r just plain lousy. I dunno. I'm not u. Its all in the past. No pt wasting so much space on it liao. As i said, we cant run away from OUR failures or our past mistakes. Final word: Lets just face it n get on with life. Hahahaha... ;p

Tremorssssssss

2005-04-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

There have been quite a few tremors over the past few weeks off the coast of west Sumatra. Some were strong enuff to b felt in Singapore. Well ppl living in this side of SG didn’t feel anything. Here’s y:

My View of the Construction happening 17 storeys below...

See those large rocks of granite? Tts wat most HDB flats are piled on in this part of SG. So to all u rich ppl living in the NE, E n Central SG: Poor things. Seeing u run out of ur homes on the news made my day…. Hahaha… Must be da alcohol. F****** crazy gary. :D

Anyway there r 2 things tt made me mad these few days. Theres this lovey dovey couple frm a sec sch nearby tt will cuddle up at the void deck everyday. Its not to say tt I’m jealous of dem la. Ok la. Abit envious only. Pls highlight n read the following if u DO NOT find racially-offensive stuff offensive. Otherwise, just skip n continue. I'm not forcing my opinions on u hor?The most disturbing fact is this: the girl is Chinese n the guy is a Giao tao!!! OMG. Can u like believe it? I knoe Its not a nice thing to say in multi-racial Singapore. Sorry for being offensive. Just read on. Being tolerant abt the different customs n religions, picking up each others’ mannerisms n vulgarities, sweating blood n tears on the football pitch/NS with different races is wonderful. But tt does not extend to GIAO TAOS taking our women. Its diff frm Chinese bride n Indian groom (south asian in general) or Chinese n other races in any combi. Its simply wrong lor. I mean r Chinese guys so CMI nowadays tt u gals out there must go find some poseur GIAOs? Somemore the gals with GIAOs r all not bad one lor. Like yo. Wats the world coming to sia? PCB….

CSS choir won GOLD WITH HONOURS for SYF last wk. Great! Really happy for dem…. Was reminiscing abt choir with my junior whos 2 yrs younger than me. She was also doing relief n we talked abt SYF during my yr in ’99. She said, “At least it wasn’t my batch tt got SILVER.” If she'd said tt to me when i was 16, i'd have thrown here down the MRT platform there n then. But the slightly less irrational 21 yr old gary thot, "Shes right." Y did we get silver then? Cause of the f****** CB Sops who were so seriously super off. Its not my opinion. It was the truth tt the conductor related to me. I cant say the other parts were faultless, neither do I wish to put the blame squarely on you ppl, but it’s the fact tt you caused the blemish on all our records. Its tt serious. I wun b so mad if I wasn’t reminded of tt shameful fact. Neither would I be if the succeeding batches didn’t get gold. Its unlike VJChoir in '01 when we sang our hearts n soul out n lost to some indifferent judging at the FInals. Losing in any competition is hard to take but so long as every1 concerned did their best, its still acceptable. None of us did anything to deserve this insult in '99 lor. Its all your fault. . N for tt all those of u who r responsible (all of you knoe who u r), I hope u burn in hell… HMPH.

Oh yes. More volcanic activity happening in Indonesia. Scary man…

The alcohol is taking over me. Byebye… ;P

CAnt believe it...

2005-04-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

It really was high drama tdy. I’ve been contemplating abt wat I can disclose on the net. Well I’ve signed this Official Secrets Act form when I was accepted as a relief teacher. So I’m v sure I cant say anything. Lets see wat I can publish…. The incident involved many personnel in white cars la. Tts all…

Tdy was my last day as a relief teacher. Y must it end liddat sia? Oh my. Was abt to go hm after council investiture when I was requested 2b a kay poh by the VP. I just wanted to ask her if I was needed tmrw. Damn. Then ended up spending so many hours in n outside sch…. But I did bring with me some interesting lessons:

Kids fall into bad company when they have family problems or lack of parental guidance. U might hear of it from the papers or news but its different to actually hear it frm ppl who really have them. This was a recurring theme I found out after interviewing the kids. So 4 u ppl out there who will most likely form double income families, giving $ to ur children is no sub for parental love.

the “早上我们是 student, 晚上我们是brother” advert is an accurate representation of reality lor. Cause at the later part of the advert when the dude got arrested, none of his “brothers” visited him. Talk abt “loyalty” man. In tdy’s incident, it was all about saving ur own skin: After u tell the dudes tt r supposedly on the same side fragments of the same story, u’ll seed doubts in them. Then it all falls apart n u see the real human nature: SAVING UR OWN SKIN IS THE MOST IMPT THING.

When ppl are being interrogated, they will tell you the truth if u can make them believe u know sufficient facts to nail them. Wat I didn’t expect was that even in these situations, ppl will do their best to withhold the truth. It was like the more we asked, the more ppl got involved and more “amazing facts” were discovered. It was truly fascinating…

True 100% loyalty/brotherhood to ur buddies/partners-in-crime only exist in movies la.

I obviously cant go into specifics la. But the lessons learnt are more important rite? Poor kids man. :(

I don’t think any1 can believe it if I say this. But on this day when I had this “incident involving personnel in white cars.”, I saw the assailant of another incident tt happened in the same sch 7yrs ago. Can u believe the kind of odds involved? Oh my... How time flies man.

Anyway tt incident came out in the papers so I’m not revealing anything tt any1 doesn’t knoe. Girl G gets stabbed by Boy B. Didn’t use a big knife. But it was long la. Missed her lungs by few cm. Shes alive n kicking now la. B probably had something on his mind tt he 想不通-ed. (cant say anything else about his state of mind la. He lives like nearby lor. Wat if he….. ARGH.. Felt hum la) Student C appeared on scene with Teacher D as “concerned parties”. The 3 students here r classmates la. Its my blog rite? So i'm talking abt myself here. No prizes for guessing who i am here... B escaped the scene but still stayed in school and climbed over the ledge of 1 of the school’s classroom blocks. Could have plummeted like 4 stories lor. So C n D hauled B over b4 anything else could happen. The rest wasn’t handled by the school la. *zip*

Well I totally freaked out when I knew he was living ard the corner. Cause he said I abetted his crime. Like yo. Its just so not true… Revenge is never far frm a human being’s mind u knoe? SCARED-ed la. So on a day when so much happened n I met him at the MRT station, its like such a MAJOR coincidence man.

So much has happened tdy. Tired… zzz….

P.S. Can any current student reading this find some way to tell the Red Cross memb frm the class tt helped clear up stores on Game’s Day to read the 070405 post? I hate it when I dun substantiate my statements…Thanks

Conspicuous

2005-04-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

Frm my post in VC’s forum:

“does any1 have the SIglap South CC office num?

I... err... need to ask if they found any blazer with the cover. skunk so kindly remembered to bring it frm his place to return me n i LEFT IT IN SIGLAP. must have been bitching abt the extra tear on the cover n talking too much. I left it at the first bench that is at the corner of the courtyard and closest to the hall. red bench i think... hai... :cry:

can u believe i lost something so big n conspicuous? n i only like realised it this morn when i woke up. ARGH... :oops:”

I mean how dumb can u get sia? Dunno wth I was doing man. Must have been the “smile” which I got frm some1. Haha. Then I blur after tt. Hai. Loser la. L

Watching the annual NKF fundraiser now. Dun like these “non-profit” organizations one bit. Hate them. Before blasting me, just read on. First of all, wat does NKF stand for? National KIDNEY Foundation. Which necessarily implies their only priority shld be in neprology n its associated problems. So while it is laudable that they have branched into other meaningful causes and set up funds like the NKF Children’s Fund and NKF Cancer Fund, we must first examine their rationale for doing so. Other than filling up an obvious need in society, it all boils down to “THEY HAVE TOO MUCH MONEY”

I would not have anything against tt if they have full accountability over their usage of the public’s donations. I mean it could be true that most of the funds in fact goes to helping people. But I’m sure there’s something many people dunno. There is a law which says that up to 35% (or 25%, correct me if I’m wrong) of the funds available to these organisations can be used for its personnel costs, irregardless of their other needs. Which means that after all the expenses r taken into account, a sizeable amount (given the behemoth that is NKF) will be for their top executives. Its an inverted pyramid: the one man at the top will have the most remuneration compared to the people at the bottom. Maybe in big profit-centeredcorporations its justifiable for thE CEO to get so much pay coz of their strategic direction, but y shld the personnel at the top of a CHARITABLE organization be earning so much more than other people at the bottom? U mean the efforts of that 1 man is more meaningful than the numerous healthcare specialists at the bottom? Of course I dun mean to say they shldnt be paid at all. Professional expertise costs $. But shld they b paid so much? Now you knoe y “non-profit” organizations are called “non-profit” rite? The executives are technically entitled to line their pockets with their conscience as their only guideline... Tts hardly assuring rite? Gives u a new perspective doesn’t it? Think abt it…

If u have anything against my views, go research the numbers urself.

I’m sure I can be wrong. I really hope so. But until the day NKF decides to open their books to the public domain, which they shld since almost all their funds come from public donations, my view is still plausible. Anyway, if they have nothing to hide, y shld they be so reluctant when told to do so a few years ago? Are they afraid of the possible public backlash?

Their setting of subsidiary funds oso draw attention and funds away frm other more specialized organizations like the Children Cancer Foundation, which are better suited to advance their cause. This is cause NKF is such a big franchise over here so any fund that begins with NKF is bound to get more attention. With attention, comes more funds for them. Which means less for everybody else in the “business of charity”.

True altruism requires no rewards. If u wish to help the needy, you wouldn’t care if there were prizes rite? Or if there were fancy schemes like 去年打今年打，双倍奖金 playing on your mind? They shldnt be playing on people’s innate nature of “giving it a go”. They might say prizes r frm sponsors. It is indeed smart for the sponsors to publicise their products by putting it on such a gigantic platform. Just like the stars who appear on the show who are doing charity but more importantly, publicising their upcoming concert or recently-released album. Anyway, no1 knoes if they get paid an appearance fee or a sizeable token fee. U might think they dun but it might not be the case... Shouldnt comment anymore, but I'm a cynic la. Wouldn’t the public n patients concerned be happier if the “sponsors” who really wanna help donate cool hard cash instead of enticing more ppl to donate, since they r already giving up the product?

Furthermore, I’m sure these cash prizes are frm the funds which YOU donated riteE? Would u be pleased to knoe tt some jackass ACTUALLY MADE A SIZEABLE PROFIT (from your donations no less) by being “charitable”? I feel its morally reprehensible. Anyway, u haven’t heard of any1 who gives back 100% of their prize $ back to the organization which awarded the prize rite? I think it would be betta if they do away with the prizes so tt they can have more funds to really help the needy.

If u r reading this n are still not cheesed off, thanks. If u r like me, with not much $ to donate, there are many other ways of being charitable. For starters, you can try donating blood or to under-publicized organizations (irregardless of their religious affiliation, if any) like whose major source of income is from the traditional tin can donations u see on weekends. U can also give a small amt to the buskers u see at MRT stations who give their heart n soul in their performances. N yes, believe it or not, the incompassionate, anti-christ (as my friend gerald believes i am) bastard me does all of the above. When it comes to charity, I do help out in whatever way I can.

N yes. DO NOT DONATE to those well-dressed “volunteers” peddling tickets to you. The tickets say “XXX Pte Ltd”. Private companies. Those kids are hired to do so. Maybe I’ll say more the next time I encounter 1.

DO NOT DONATE TO YOUTH CHALLENGE too. If I’m still blogging in Dec this yr and I see YC volunteers in Orchard, I’ll give you the low-down on them. I have well-placed sources with numbers to substantiate. Hehe.

To end off, the Ren Ci Hospital reverend is a smart dude too. How he works the mass media for his organization is indeed admirable. Its reminiscent of how the pope used to do so for catholicism and to bring down communism. These men are intelligent enuff to use it so well to advance the causes of their organizations. *clap clap* Religion is really a very powerful tool. U only have to read Frank Herbert’s all-time best-selling sci-fi classic, DUNE (all 6 of them, to get the complete picture) n look at reality now and you’ll realize wat a visionary he is n how true the statement is. Seriously.

Tmrw is my last day as relief lo. Back to unemployment… Sucks. :(

Hot In More Ways Than One

2005-04-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

burnt...

Lessons ended at 10am cause tdy was the sch's Game’s Day. No more Sport’s Day can u believe it? Emphasis is on games now la. Tdy only had 5 periods la. N dey had to pack me up fully for the 5 periods man. PB sia. Ok la. The school is making their money's worth wat. Nothing wrong. One of the classes i took was an NT class la. They were such a bunch of lively funny kids. I made fun of this guy n a ger la. He was like sitting quite close to her then keep on irritating her. Dey were hitting each other too. Then I said, “eh u like her issit? Tts u keep on ka jiao her rite?”. It caused quite a ruckus la. Then he kept his distance. HAHA. Sometimes it pays to use such tactics on kids. Cause if I didn’t do tt, I’m sure he’d have kept on irritating her… haha. An enjoyable class AS A RELIEF. ;p

Other lessons went smoothly. Then came the Game’s Day. Didn’t have to cover tt but I volunteered to help the PE dept la. Was on this tonner-like lorry transporting the equipment to Clementi Stadium. Sat at the front with the driver. He commented, “Game’s Day? No Sport’s day. Tt feels like pri sch lor.” Agreed. ;_) But really its none of my concern.

Helped moved stores despite my knee condition la. Must say its still holding up, but I’ll really knoe if it did tmrw morn. Hmmm… Had a good laugh with Mr Choo n Mr Lim la. Haha…

Was there as a starter for all the track events la. 10 X 50m (like yo rite? Haha), 4 X 1 n 4 X 4. Before tt they had all their games, Frisbee, mini soccer, captain’s ball n push ball. I was slacking during tt time la. Talked to Mrs Leong my former Maths teacher. I respect her a lot. She helped me "see the light" in Maths. Haha. Had a good talk about the education system, the sch and about life in general. Well I dun think the part about the education system n the sch r fit for publishing la. Its more of a private conversation. :p

Anyway the track events started and I was quite busy la. Tts how I got sunburnt too. No shade for many hrs. iT was so bright n sunny. Haha. Had a couple of boo-boos la. Like not whistling properly. Had even funnier thing: I put the whistle in my mouth, was about to blow it when it just slipped out of my mouth. I was lucky not many ppl caught tt boo-boo la. So funny. Pity the kids who had to suffer an extra moment of anxiety due to my incompetence la. Sorry.

Later I switched to using the v loud aerosol horn. Cause a PE teacher said he couldn’t hear the whistle frm other side of field. Reasonable. But perhaps he didn’t figure there wasn’t enuff aerosol left for the remaining races la. Think was at sec2 4 X 4 boys when I readied them n flagged them. I had to use a red flag to flag them off n to start off the 8 timekeeepers. At the same time, I had to press the aerosol horn. But there was no aerosol left. Well but I had the trusty flag n they saw the "silent" flag n ran la. However, there was this dude who looked at me so intently that he failed to realise every1 had run off. He only ran off quite a while later. Poor dude. Haha. But not my fault. :P Just then Mr Choo said last event. Prog ran over allocated time. Had to postpone the remaining events. So happened the horn ran out of gas. Fated rite? Maybe its just a coincidence la. Haha.

I managed to observe 2 of de sec2 cross gers running for their class la. Zai la. Impressive. Didn’t knoe the timing (same class) but judging by the way they ran I feel dey can make it la. :)

If u had the patience to have read thru the many paragraphs of intro, thanks. Read on. The incident tt pissed me off BIG TIME is coming up. As with all 4 X 4 relays, one might expect a fair bit of casualties mainly due to poor conditioning la. There was this ger who was obviously hyperventilating v badly. WHAT WAS THE RED CROSS TEACHER-IN-CHARGE DOING? She was marking her papers. CAN U F****** believe it? I mean hyperventilation can mean many things but she used “eye power” to resolve the situation or maybe she just “didn’t see it” lor. Even if she so lao jiao (pro) tt she felt tt the ger was going to be ok, she shld have at least given instructions to her poor Red Cross gers on how to help the patient wat. They were obviously not coping well cause I remb helping her up n yet 10 mins later, she was still on the mat having shallow breathing. They were more interested in putting ice packs on the areas she felt pain in n not realiSing tt the breathing prob was more pertinent. Dun blame them. With this kind of crap CB teacher IC, no wonder.

Oh well I just felt I had to do something. I experienced a similar case b4 so first thing I asked was if she was asthmatic. She said no. then I thot, “no matter how exhausted u r, any normal person would have recovered reasonably enuff to walk about after TEN minutes of heavy panting wat. Maybe she was the anxiety-prone ger some other teachers were talking abt (shes tt famous lor), which I overheard earlier in the morn. Couldn’t confirm. Wat I think happened was tt having pushed herself to run as hard as she did, she was physically exhausted initially. After the race was over, her physical exhaustion coupled with her anxiety tendencies, somehow her mind lost control n thot it was something v seriously wrong (when it was nothing more than normal physical exertion) hence causing her to pant so badly. Of course, I’m no doctor or exercise physiologist and the above is just my deduction la.

Anyway, I got down to her level, sat beside her and started reassuring her. She gradually resumed normal breathing after some coaxing. I felt it was all in her mind because just as my reassurance was showing its effects, she would suddenly hyperventilate again whenever the red cross ppl asked her questions (she had to think of replies), tried to change her icepacks or to elevate her limb (these might lead to her “thinking too much”). Anyway didn’t feel any tightness in her muscle or any obvious swelling on her limbs. More evidence tt it was more psychological. Ok la.

So after some time I managed to get her off her icepacks one at a time. She felt better n was well enuff to be helped back to her class. She wasn’t so seriously hurt after all. I’m saying all these not to proclaim myself as some big hero. I’m just so disappointed tt in a time of obvious crisis, the F****** CB teacher in charge didn’t show any leadership even though the situation could have degenerated into something serious. SUCKS man. I mean even if the situation didn’t deteriorate, were they all just going to let her pant till tomorrow morning? Hai… Anyway, the teacher did teach me b4. Dun mean any disrespect but dun u just hate it when the school plays with ur future? Shldnt elaborate further on tt liao.

This brings me to the most impt pt today. Being a teacher is abt a passion to teach. It’s a noble profession. Its not something every1 can excel in. Its not an occupation where the retrenched or any other person whose purpose in teaching is solely to collect their salary every month shld be involved in. Its tt serious. If u are a teacher, u r directly involved in aiding n moulding a student’s development. If u are a student reading this now u might think I’m saying crap but when u leave sch n think back on specific incidents when the teacher touched your life, u’ll knoe how true it its. No way shld u think of being one if u have no desire to educate your students or u just wanna “pay your bills” I should just stop here before I start apportioning blame to this multi-faceted issue. Neither do I want to mention any names be it individual or organizational. I dun want to get “flamed” u knoe?

noW u knoe y I’m so pissed?

Its late n i shld turn in now... shagged.

yAy!

2005-04-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

Finally got a job. Doing relief teaching at my former sec sch. HAvent really had much contact with the school and its students after leaving in 2000. Must say the pupils have changed somewat. Maybe I’m just looking at them from a perspective of an oldie. Oh well esp the upper sec guys. I dun remb looking so small n cute when I was tt age lor. I only remembered having a face tt said “looking for a fight?”. Haha. Maybe my face still does… *oops oops*

So strange being a teacher. Feels awkward being called “sir” and giving permission to kids when they wanna go to the washroom la. Haha. Not used to it la. Being pushed around like a slave for the best part of the last 2 yrs and being greeted now sure does feel good. Wat an elevation of status la. HAHAHA….

But some things never change: Pupils are always happy that their teachers are not coming for their lessons and a relief comes in. Coz the students can do their own stuff n make noise. Well must say facing a class of pupils isn’t an easy experience la. Esp if you are untrained. However, must say the classes I went to were quite nice la. Didn’t make a lot of noise. Basically I just told them to sit down, do your own work or read a book, dun make too much noise and “ask me if you have any questions regarding any subject”. Most of the time I think I was in sch to 卖笑 lor. When students greet me, I smile. When I tok to any teacher or admin staff, I smile. In class I oso smile. Haha. Maybe tts y dey listen to me la. Didn’t have many problems maintaining order. *oops oops* hope I haven’t “reverse-voodooed” myself *fingers crossed* I still have a few days to go la. Haha.

Another thing tts unchanged: Students are still reluctant to ask questions even when they dun understand the answers to their mistakes. I was a student once la. Though I must add that i rarely didn’t understand anything. ;p I had to walk around the class asking many students personally if they had any questions. True enuff, there were many questions about chemistry, the subject I’m supposed to be taking over for these couple of days. After solving the chem questions I still had to solve some A-Maths circular measure question. Took me quite a while. But I was glad to be using my brain productively again. Hehe. :D

I was away frm the sch for 5 yrs and I had to like fill in the teachers’ lor. Quite tiring la. Felt like a Q&A session. Tried to tell as little as possible, so that I didn’t have so many things to elaborate on.

K la. Shall end here. Need to slp soon. Sian. … :D

Still Cant Run

2005-04-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

Had physiotheraphy early in the morn. Depresssing sia. Was supposed to start running tdy but I’ve had this mysterious long-term complication known to ACL recon patients: the kneecap moves about in a zig-zag motion everytime the knee wants to do something. Been having it for the past 2 wks. Thot it’ll turn out fine but no. It didn’t. It’s an extremely irritating feeling which leads to insecurity whenever I tried running today. Sucks man. Been out for so long liao n still cant run. To me, tts even more painful than any injury I’ve ever sustained. Not only tt, but I have another prob: PFS. Patello-Femoral Syndrome. The physio tt was newly assigned to me (cause my prev physio quit to do his doctorate) seemed to revel in firing off n telling her patients wat this and other medical acronyms mean la. So funny. Haha....

Well my knees r as loser as me la. Cant point a gun at dem n force them to recover miraculously rite? Nvm. Shall persevere. I shall recover soon. When tt time comes, nothing will stop me. HAHAHA… :)

Anyway the rest of the session went fine la. Did muscle strengthening n some control exercises la. They didn’t trouble me too much other than tt stupid kneecap creaking at everything I did. My physio commented, “dun worry so much la. Ur muscle strength is ok. Well u have a ridiculously strong baseline to begin with so just have to work on your control la.” Tt was rather comforting until I thot of the proven fact tt some ppl never recover fully or dun recover at all frm this consistent creaking of the kneecap. I might be one of them. ARGH… NONONO… I wun believe that. I will get well. I will recover.

It sucks to be out injured for whatever reason. When u cant run without pain, when u cant even go about your daily activities without feeling some form of discomfort tt feeling is trash. Makes u depressed. Well I knoe how tt feels. So to every1 out there, treasure your health esp ur physical well-being. Just a word of advice to all the guys going for ns, pls dun b so garang n injure urself. After u ORD, no1 rembs wat a great soldier you were during the 2yrs. However, if u injure urself, the injury will stay with you for the rest of your life. Well I’m not speaking from personal experience la. Cause I injured my knees b4 army. I’m just relating to you wat my BMT sergeant told me after I Out of Course of BMT. He saw tt I wasn’t dealing with it too well so he said something along the lines of “u only serve army for 2yrs but your injury stays with u for the rest of life. Ur legs r more impt la” He was right. N I did feel betta after that. :D

2005-04-04T22:26:00.000+08:00

My Friends!!!

Still very free...

2005-04-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah. I'm still loser at hm. nothing to do man. then my fren gerald told me on MSN, "why blog sia? so happening ah? how come never update daily one? today no updates ah?" fake like i nvr blog daily will die lor. Hes a PB la. Tts not a nice word but every1 says i keep using it (which i DUN) so must reinforce his view lor. Its not nice to prove ur frens wrong rite?

K la. Well i'm sure every1 knoes tt the Pope passed away yest morn at 0337 Singapore time. I'm no Catholic or Christian but i did shed a tear (actually quite a lot of tears) when i was watching CHannel News Asia's special yest. Yes. u heard me. A volatile, vulgar n incompassionate asshole like me being touched by his deeds. Cause he was always praying for world peace n for the sick n suffering. Esp the scene where they showed him forgiving his assailant in jail for tt dude's attempted assasination on him. N he also helped bring an end to communism la. He ushered in a new era in world politics: His visit to Poland after he was elected as Pope brought about social change. His first words were: "Do not be afraid". His visit to the Phillipines was oso another impt event in their history. He was the only person ever who scolded Marcos in his presidental palace la. N helped bring about the "People Power" revolution tt liberated the Phillipines frm 26 yrs of Marcos dictatorship. Wow. Raspac sia. Anyway u must be wondering y countries still let him in when they might have some idea what he was going to do to their nation. Well i guess u cant actually refuse a head of state who wants to visit ur country rite? SOmemore hes the religious leader of so many Catholics ard the world. In case u dun realise the Pope is also the Head of State of the Vatican which is a soverign nation. Ya la. Hope he finds peace in heaven la. :)

Anyway Ferrari lost spectacularly again despite rolling out their new car 2 races ahead of time. Schumi's out early in the race after pushing Alonso hard at the start. SOme radiator prob he said. Hydraulics. F1 cars r all semi-auto la. then the 'perennial bridesmaid' Barrichello oso couldnt push his car to the max. Not enuff mileage in testing. Gearbox prob. sad la. but Alonso deserved the win!!! powerful reliable Renault la. respect. Story of the day: Montoya hairline fracture in shoulder cause of tennis accident n couldnt compete. Freak accident la. Gossip was tt he rode in motocross n met with accident la. Highly-paid athletes (most F1 drivers earn > US10mil per yr la. Schumi's pay is abt US25mil... 0_0) shld knoe betta than to engage in any dangerous activity tt will cause them to fail in their professional obligations n responsibility to their fans. BUT.... I believe the freak tennis accident story la. Y? CAUSE FREAK ACCIDENTS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME!!!! Anyway Pedro de la Rossa, MclarenMercedes' test driver came in for him despite having being out of competitive F1 racing for 3yrs. He drove like a man on mission la. pushing his car so hard n overtaking many ppl along his way to 5th la. Abit mad la. but exciting drive frm him...

Finally my daily complaint time: the PB BOWYER kena fined 6wks wages la. tts 200000 pounds la. abt 600000 sing dollars la. for 6wks u know? Amazing how much top sportsmen make isnt it? haha. if i were the manager, i'd fine him now just to keep team morale up. n let him play on cause he'll b desperate to make amends la. N play well. BUT... i'll offload tt dick in the coming summer lor. hes nothing but a violent ass who thinks tts the most impt thing in the game. siao. btw, hes the one who caused Sir Bobby Robson to sell Solano la. Cause he thot bowyer was younger n betta. which is a wrong decision lor. u just have to compare their performances lor. i HATE bowyer la. I'm sure u get my pt liao. Hope he gets lost. Soon.

I've Finally Started...

2005-04-03T18:50:00.000+08:00

Blogging has been on my mind for quite some time now. Well but i've been too lazy for many mths tt i havent started on it. besides i have so many things to do at hm tt i wun need to blog to kill time...

BUT... I really have too much time on my hands lor. I've been leading a useless existence for the past couple of mths lor. cause of my MCs n everything. haha. now tt i've become human again (after getting back my pink IC 2 Mondays ago), i realise tt i'm the only 1 among all my friends who wastes away at hm. Most of the guys my age who ORDed in the same batch have gotten a job lo. Then poor me hiding at hm everyday. Sucks sia.

Ok. To kick off my first entry i shall tok abt something tt has been a big part of my life for the past couple of years: Choir. Currently singing with Victoria Chorale. Well my friends always ask me y i join choir esp VC (since its purely voluntary) when i'd rather be out running or doing sports. Erm. It seems tt singing in a choir is something tt i can do reasonably well now tt i've had both my knees op-ed and cant possibly hope to run for the next couple of wks. Moreover, being the lonesone loser i am, travelling from Yew Tee (in Choa Chu Kang) to Siglap (yea. i can hear the, "wah lau. this guy is a f***ing idiot sia.") and singing till 2130 EVERY SATURDAY is a good way of killing time. Reaching home earliest at 2330 isnt. However, the most impt pt is tt, i dun enjoy choral singing. Yes. u heard me right. I dun. Joined CommonwealthSecSch choir cause i was forced to. I thot, "since i'm in choir with no way out, no matter how boring or sucky it is, i must still persevere n not let any1 down." To me, singing well n practising hard is the responsibility of every chorister. Joined VJChoir caused of a poignant pt my mum made," Aiyah 你都唱这样久了，干脆再唱下去咯。不然唱了这么久就荒废了它，不会觉得很可惜吗?" I thot, 'yeah shes right. wat else can i do other than singing in choir? esp with my Right knee half gone by then. :(' So i continued lor. But i must say singing with my direct seniors was a v enjoyable exp. They were good n committed singers. :)
Anyway i'm in VC now for 3 reasons only.
1. At least i wun feel like such a big loser on Saturdays. At least i have a weekly activity to look forward to.
2. I feel its an honour n priviledge to sing with ppl who r betta than me n knoe their music well.
3. I'm crazy enuff to enjoy the stress n pressure of singing a piece well. U have no idea how intellectually challenging it is for a music idiot like me to master any song, however easy it is.
U'd realise that 'a love or passion for singing' and 'socialising' are missing above. Yeah. dun think its impt rite?

Yup. Think its sufficient explanation la. Hope no1 asks me y i'm still in choir ever again.

Football is also a part of my life la. I'm a NEWCASTLE UNITED supporter la. Regardless of the innumerable jibes n insults i receive from my friends, i'll still support them. But tts for another time la. Would just like to say i HATE Lee Bowyer the violent j***a**. Have always disliked him. Now i hate him lor. Must have been him tt provoked Dyer n caused a game of football to become footbrawl. Can u believe tt they r professional footballers n teammates? These 2 jokers have just handed the FA Cup Semi-Final in Cardiff to Man U on a silver platter. :( SHearer's (my hero) announcement tt hes going on for another season must have been a bad omen. hai....

Yay!!! There's Formula1 in 45 mins time. Which i'm receiving courtesy of our Msian frens. They have it free lor. i'm so jealous.

till next time.